Losing

Verse 1 Pressure building in the back of my mind White-knuckle grip but I’m slipping inside I said I’m fine like I’ve said it before But something’s bending I can’t ignore I built these walls to carry the load Stacked up the weight like it made me bold But under the surface the tension grows And nobody sees how it overflows Pre-Chorus And I can feel it slipping from my hands Chorus I’m losing control Cracks beginning to show In the places I swore I was solid as stone I’m losing control Verse 2 Heartbeat racing but my face stays still Say what you want — I bend to your will Hold it together, play the part While everything’s pulling me apart I kept it locked, kept it contained Swallowed the doubt, buried the strain But the pressure keeps pushing back And now I’m fading fast Pre-Chorus And I can feel it slipping from my hands Chorus I’m losing control Cracks beginning to show In the places I swore I was solid as stone I’m losing control Bridge (half-time, melodic/rap feel) I tried to hold it steady, tried to keep it straight Built up the armor just to compensate But the weight keeps shifting underneath my feet And I’m wide awake in defeat No more pretending it’s all okay No more holding it in this way Pre-Chorus (higher, urgent) It’s getting harder just to stand Final Chorus (big, layered vocals) I’m losing control Cracks beginning to show In the places I swore I was solid as stone I’m losing control