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DEER BOY

]Section I — Initiation] Tongue numb, jaw wired Prescription scripture down the spine I blur the edges of the room Until my name no longer answers Heartbeat clicks like a chambered round I feel the latch come loose Something tall behind my eyes Something hungry for the rules [Section II — Emergence] Antlers scrape the ceiling When the lights start to bow I don’t black out —I get replaced He doesn’t speak He advances [BREAKDOWN I] STEP ASIDE THIS BODY’S MINE CIVILITY LEFT BEHIND Section III — Deer Boy Call him Deer Boy Call him consequence Call him every thought You buried with chemicals No memory, no leash Just velocity and teeth Anarchist by instinct Every law tastes like meat [BREAKDOWN II] NO GODS NO ORDER NO TOMORROW ONLY FORCE [Section IV — Escalation] Sirens melt into rhythm Glass keeps time with my pulse Street signs fold at the corners Morality snaps like bones I’m gone when he’s breathing I’m quiet when he’s awake He carves his name into nights I wake up counting the breaks ]BREAKDOWN III (SLOW / HEAVY)] WHO DID THIS NOT ME WHO’S BLEEDING NOT ME WHO PAYS ME Section V — Fracture Photos I don’t remember taking Threats I don’t remember meaning Apologies written in my voice But soaked in something feral He doesn’t hate He doesn’t love He deletes [BREAKDOWN IV (RIOT TEMPO)] ERASE ERASE ERASE ERASE Section VI — Come Down Morning tastes like aftermath Hands shake like witnesses Every bruise is a question Every silence is evidence They say I said things They say I did things They say Deer Boy’s a terror I say nothing Because I don’t know him [FINAL BREAKDOWN (BOTTOM-HEAVY, DRAGGED OUT)] TWO MINDS ONE SHELL LOCK HIM IN I GO TO HELL DEER BOY LIVES WHEN I AM GONE SOBER GHOST IN A WAR ZONE [Outro] If I stay clean He starves If I slip He eats I don’t remember the damage But my name does