When I Finally Chose Myself | Sovereign Closure

[Verse 1] I learned to be impressive Before I learned to rest Love was something earned By how well I performed my best A mother who needed listening A father who wanted more I built myself into usefulness And called it something pure [Pre-Chorus] So I chose the almost-available The curious but unsure Women who loved what I offered But couldn’t meet me at the core [Chorus] I don’t perform for love anymore I don’t audition at your door If you can’t choose me freely I won’t chase you for more I am not here to prove my worth Or shrink so you feel tall I choose the ones who choose me back Or I don’t choose at all [Verse 2] I gave reassurance Consistency and care Gifts and time and presence Hoping someone would stay there But when I needed holding When I asked to be seen My depth became a burden My heart became “too keen” [Bridge — Realization] It was never about deficiency It was familiarity Chaos feels like chemistry When you mistake it for clarity I release the karmic pattern The intensity that burns I choose a love that feels like home Not something I must earn [Final Chorus — Expanded] I don’t perform for love anymore I don’t overgive to feel secure I stand contained, whole in myself My intuition clear and pure King of cups, queen of cups Steady hands and open sun I walk toward reciprocal hearts And leave the rest undone