You ask me if I want you here I say, “Do what you want” You stand there for a second Then you start putting your coat on I thought you'd call me out again Say, “Look at me and try” But you don't ask a second time You just say, “Alright” You used to hear the difference Between my voice and what I meant Now you're taking every word And I can't blame you for that Don't believe me When I say I don't need you When I say I'll be alright When I say it's getting easier Sleeping on my side Don't believe me I've been trying to sound like Someone who could let you leave I don't know why You believe me You say you've booked a room for Friday I ask you where, you ask me why I say I only meant the traffic You say there won't be much at night I'm asking questions about parking Like that's the thing I need to know You say, “Is there something else?” I say, “No, no, no” There it is again I hear myself do it You're giving me a chance And I'm talking my way through it Don't believe me When I say I don't need you When I say I'll be alright When I say it's getting easier Sleeping on my side Don't believe me I've been trying to sound like Someone who could let you leave I don't know why You believe me I said I liked the quiet I said I needed space I said I slept much better Without you at my place I said you didn't have to call You said, “Okay, goodnight” I watched your name disappear And stayed awake till light I was lying— I WAS LYING WHEN I SAID I DIDN'T NEED YOU I WAS LYING WHEN I SAID I'D BE ALRIGHT I kept telling you to leave me Then I listened for your keys Every night Every night Don't get used to being gone (Don't get used to it) Don't get good at moving on (Don't get good at it) I made leaving look so easy It was never what I wanted I WANT YOU HOME Please believe me When I say I still need you When I say I'm not alright I've been saying I don't miss you With your number on my screen Every night Please believe me I don't want to learn to lose you I don't want to get that strong I was wrong I was wrong I WANT YOU HOME I said I didn't need you (I was lying) I said I'd be alright (I was lying) You said, “Then why'd you let me go?” I thought you'd know I didn't mean it You shouldn't have to know
