Signal Online

Breathe slow... just to get through the day… same time, same place, same screen in my face same lines I replay just to get through the day no pause, no break, no space in between keep it all locked up, keep it clean, keep it seen I don’t say much, I just keep it contained but it slips through my hands when I try to stay the same something’s off and I can’t fake it feel it build and I can’t break it still here still online say I’m good but I’m not right no signs no sound but it’s getting hard to hold it down still here still online something’s not right small cracks, small slips, can’t cover them fast like it’s catching up to everything I’ve pushed past every move feels tracked, every step feels timed and I can’t keep it quiet like I used to in my mind I don’t need help that’s what I say but it don’t feel true anymore these days something’s wrong and I can’t hide it feel it now, can’t get behind it still here still online say I’m good but I’m not right no signs no sound but it’s getting hard to hold it down still here still online something’s not right …still …still online …I need …I need help still here still online say I’m …not fine no signs I can’t keep holding this down still here still online I don’t feel right I'm scared. …signal unstable… …signal