[Intro] Painful memories are here as a reminder Apologies are bridges broken yet to be mended This is a look into why I saved my relationship, the painful state I was in This is what you go through before you fix the things that break [Papa] My intentions were always pure, and I always mean to keep my promises Sometimes I fall short in the premises of the undying stresses, Sometimes my mind is just a fucking mess I don't know where I'm going unless, You tell me that you are coming too, You want to walk together yet my tattered shoes stay my feet Mistakes that I make, I just accept my defeat Forgiving me isn't easy, I'm a shit man just downright beastly I've poured out love, and now you just don't see me I've shattered your sight of me it seems atleast Shaking hands, I'm fucking sinking Something so small but it just creeps like ink between the threads of the sheets Stained the very thing that was trusting I honestly pretty much hate me, It's a shame to say that I believe that I'm a four eyed bow-legged nerd on a side of fat with a black beanie hat and a voice that sounds like a narrator on sad facts about cats, Hating myself is my art, I always do my best but then I go and fuck it up hard. I didn't quit with you and that tore your heart, because the trust is what I broke, It's not what I wanted and I'm forever sorry, the pain I provoke I don't think I could ever get as angry at you as I made you with me, but I guess I just have to live with that because I know I have it good, so I take what you throw at me even if I wouldn't throw it back You could say you hate me and I'd probably crawl to you in fact Because all I know is loving you I'm sorry I always find some way to hurt you with stupid shit that shouldn't matter. I'm sorry you're stuck even loving someone like me It's all built up in me and shattered I've been trying so hard to be the best I can be, prove to you that I won't hurt you That I'm exactly who I used to be before you met me. Anyone who would read a writing of mine like this would just say I'm overreacting or crazy, or that I'm depressed and need help, but honestly, the hurt I cause you just quadruples the pain I get from my guilt. The way you look at me when I do.... I can't stand it, and I'm sorry for putting you in that state of mind I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry That I haven't taken a walk in your shoes [Outro] Again... This was a memory The pain before my marriage I'm in happily Painful memories aren't here to tie us down They are here as a reminder, you can make it through and change, so long as you don't succumb to the consequences of pain
