ずっと fear を抱えてきた [zutto fear o kakaete kita || I've always carried fear] いちばんしっくりくる言葉は heavy だった [ichiban shikkuri kuru kotoba wa heavy datta || The word that fit best was "heavy"] 胸の上に居座って、どのドアも [mune no ue ni isuwatte, dono doa mo || It sat on my chest, and every door] 「おまえはここじゃない」みたいに閉じて見えた ["omae wa koko ja nai" mitai ni tojite mieta || seemed to close as if to say, "You don't belong here"] ほとんど全部が怖かった [hotondo zenbu ga kowakatta || Almost everything scared me] でも一番こわかったのは一つだけ [demo ichiban kowakatta no wa hitotsu dake || But the thing I feared most was just one thing] まだなり途中の自分を [mada nari tochuu no jibun o || What if the me who was still becoming] 誰も見つけてくれなかったら、どうしようってこと [dare mo mitsukete kurenakattara, dou shiyou tte koto || no one ever found?] 声に出すには [koe ni dasu ni wa || To speak it out loud] まだ言葉が追いつかない [mada kotoba ga oitsukanai || the words still couldn't catch up] 何かがおかしいってわかってた [nanika ga okashii tte wakatteta || I knew something was wrong] 鏡の中の自分と [kagami no naka no jibun to || The person in the mirror] この肌が、少しずつずれていく [kono hada ga, sukoshi zutsu zurete iku || and this skin, slowly drifting apart] 彼らはそれを disorder と呼び [karera wa sore o disorder to yobi || They called it a disorder] so I started thinking maybe I was broken maybe I was the problem 名前を呼ばれて、押されて、ロッカールームで見られて [namae o yobarete, osarete, rokkā rūmu de mirarete || Being called names, pushed around, stared at in the locker room] もうそれだけで、持ちきれなかった [mou sore dake de, mochikirenakatta || That alone was more than I could bear] 一度だけ言ってみた [ichido dake itte mita || I tried to say it just once] でも相手はまっすぐ素通りで [demo aite wa massugu sudooride || But the other person walked straight past] まるで部屋の奥の椅子に置いた hoodie みたいに [marude heya no oku no isu ni oita hoodie mitai ni || Like a hoodie left on a chair in the back of a room] その静けさが、さらに深く突き刺さる [sono shizukesa ga, sara ni fukaku tsukisasaru || That silence pierced me even deeper] 自分の中へ、また戻された [jibun no naka e, mata modosa reta || I was sent back inside myself again] ずっと、ずっと、ずっと scared だった [zutto, zutto, zutto scared datta || I was always, always, always scared] でも今は、この口で言う [demo ima wa, kono kuchi de iu || But now, I'll say it with this mouth] ねえ、聞こえる？ ここにいるよ [nee, kikoeru? koko ni iru yo || Hey, can you hear? I'm here] もう一回、呼んで [mou ikkai, yonde || Call me one more time] watch me, watch me I won’t back down 声上げて、手を上げて、肩の力抜いて [koe agete, te o agete, kata no chikara nuite || Raise your voice, raise your hands, relax your shoulders] black jacket, pulse knocking, boots on the floor I am who I am, 返してよ、そのままの私を [I am who I am, kaeshite yo, sono mama no watashi o || I am who I am, give me back myself, just as I am] nobody gets to rename me ずっと、ずっと、ずっと怖かった [zutto, zutto, zutto kowakatta || I was always, always, always scared] 今は名前が、止めようとする声をはね返す [ima wa namae ga, tomeyou to suru koe o hane kaesu || Now my name deflects the voices trying to stop me] 名前を呼んで [namae o yonde || Call my name] もう一回、呼んで [mou ikkai, yonde || Call it one more time] そのままで [sono mama de || Just as I am] そのままで [sono mama de || Just as I am] あとから考えれば [ato kara kangaereba || Looking back now] 二十年ちょっとかかってやっと [nijuunen chotto kakatte yatto || It took a little over twenty years] 輪の中に立てたんだと思う [wa no naka ni tateta n da to omou || to finally stand in the circle, I think] fear は消えてない [fear wa kietenai || The fear hasn't disappeared] ただ隠すのに疲れすぎた [tada kakusu no ni tsukaresugita || I just got too tired of hiding it] 自分じゃないふりは [jibun ja nai furi wa || Pretending to be someone I'm not] ずっとドアを叩いてた [zutto doa o tataeteta || kept knocking on the door] 鏡も、嘘も、全部 [kagami mo, uso mo, zenbu || The mirror, the lies, everything] もう閉め切れなくなるまで [mou shimekire naku naru made || until I couldn't shut them out anymore] 私たちは今、もっと多くの言葉を知り [watashitachi wa ima, motto ooku no kotoba o shiri || We know many more words now] more care, more understanding でも spotlight はまだすぐ意地悪になる [demo spotlight wa mada sugu ijiwaru ni naru || But the spotlight still quickly turns cruel] 仕立てのいいスーツも、説教台も、こっちを指して [shitate no ii sūtsu mo, sekkyōdai mo, kocchi o sashite || Fine suits and pulpits point at us] まるで晒し者にしたがる [marude sarashimono ni shitagaru || As if they want to make a public spectacle of us] まるで毎日を見出しにしたがる [marude mainichi o midashi ni shitagaru || As if they want to make us headlines every day] They go for the vulnerable then act shocked when we stay [Bridge] その感覚が喉に絡むなら [sono kankaku ga nodo ni karamu nara || If that feeling catches in your throat] もう一つの言葉で壊れそうなら [mou hitotsu no kotoba de kowaresou nara || If you're about to break from another word] 今ここで聞いて [ima koko de kiite || Listen right here, right now] 君は狂ってない、遅すぎない [kimi wa kurutte nai, ososugita nai || You're not crazy, it's not too late] stop shrinking, stop waiting, stand up now you are not too much say your name out loud [Final Chorus] ずっと怖かった、ずっと怖かった [zutto kowakatta, zutto kowakatta || I was always scared, always scared] でも今、声はここまで来た [demo ima, koe wa koko made kita || But now, my voice has come this far] ねえ、まだここにいるよ [nee, mada koko ni iru yo || Hey, I'm still here] もう一回、呼んで [mou ikkai, yonde || Call me one more time] ねえ、聞こえる？ こっちだよ [nee, kikoeru? kocchi da yo || Hey, can you hear? I'm over here] もっと大きく [motto ookiku || Louder] watch me, watch me I won’t back down 手を上げて、前を向いて、場所をあけて [te o agete, mae o muite, basho o akete || Raise your hands, look forward, make space] front row, back row, everybody move black jacket, pulse knocking, boots on the floor I am who I am, その名前で呼んで [I am who I am, sono namae de yonde || I am who I am, call me by that name] if you know my name, then sing it with me if you feel that pull, don’t fold now nobody gets to rename me ずっと、ずっと、ずっと怖かった [zutto, zutto, zutto kowakatta || I was always, always, always scared] 今は名前が、止めようとする声に跳ね返る [ima wa namae ga, tomeyou to suru koe ni hanekaeru || Now my name bounces back against the voices trying to stop me] 名前を呼んで [namae o yonde || Call my name] もう一回、呼んで [mou ikkai, yonde || Call it one more time] そのままで、そのままで [sono mama de, sono mama de || Just as I am, just as I am] そのままで [sono mama de || Just as I am]
