Are you listening?

I had that dream again… You were leaving. I kept calling you. Three in the morning, wide awake Your number’s glowing, I hesitate One little button, one little sound Funny how you still turn my world around Curtains dancing in the summer air I turn around like you’re still there My phone lights up, but it’s not your name God, I hate that I still play this game And I know, I know It’s a little too late But I close my eyes And we’re back in that place Ringing, ringing Are you listening, listening? I’m somewhere between What we had and what I’m missing Dreaming, dreaming You keep leaving, leaving I wake up reaching out But there’s nobody to hold Hello? Can you hear me? Oh, I call, I call And you don’t pick up Funny how silence Can sound so much like love Your bike, that street, your old black jeans My arms around you, chasing dreams I’d say, “Go faster,” you’d laugh at me Then slow right down when I couldn’t breathe Little red marks along your neck You’d say, “What am I gonna tell them?” I’d mess your hair, you’d mess up mine We had nowhere to be, all the time You’d steal my lighter, I’d steal your smoke Half of our love was an inside joke You’d look at me at the traffic light Like we had forever that night And I know, I know Those days are gone But I still hear you laughing When the radio comes on Ringing, ringing Are you listening, listening? I’m somewhere between What we had and what I’m missing Dreaming, dreaming You keep leaving, leaving I wake up reaching out But there’s nobody to hold Last night… I saw you across the street. I called your name. You kept walking. I tried to run… But you were already— Still ringing, ringing Are you listening, listening? I keep hearing your voice In the spaces where you’re missing Still dreaming, dreaming You keep leaving, leaving And every time I wake I lose you all over again Hello? Are you still there? It’s almost five… I guess I’ll try another night.