[clean production] M.A.D.O.K. to the A. [Verse 1] Always been a smart girl We can tell Put a brave face on Show and tell How I keep the lights on How I raise my brother and my son What you call it, pressure or a diamond? Had to make it, didn't have an option You could never call me lazy I got two little mouths to feed I can't afford to be sleepin' on me [Pre-Chorus] Yeah, that's the reason I get so loud 'Cause no one came when I cried quietly Mm, I was taught how to disappear Oh, I was taught how to disappear [Chorus] So if you can't find me, just know it's in my blood If I stop replying, it's 'cause my mama taught me how to clean My daddy taught me how to lie Told me how to make you think that I was nice Told me how to leave my body Never let me leave his side Still don't know what it's like to be his type Taught me how to disappear Taught me how to disappear [Verse 2] Wish I had a dad who chose me over bottles Gave me good advice, kept me outta trouble Someone I could count on, but you taught me how to disappear I could've been a daddy's girl You just don't have a clue Wouldn't that be funny? Just a chip off of you Now I raise your son, he thinks I'm his mom He ain't gotta know the truth I grew up in a war zone Was I born a whore? No But I had to make sure that you saw me You don't see me, I get loud 'Cause when I cried, no one came So I can't help but scream The apple don't fall far from the tree And maybe you were wrong, but you were the best example I'm sorry that I had to be your daughter's greatest battle You're the first man that ever broke my heart Is that why I let them break it too? Now I raise your son, he thinks I'm his mom He ain't gotta know the truth [Chorus] So if you can't find me, just know it's in my blood If I stop replying, it's 'cause my mama taught me how to clean My daddy taught me how to lie Told me how to make you think that I was nice Told me how to leave my body Never let me leave his side Still don't know what it's like to be his type Taught me how to disappear Taught me how to disappear [Verse 3] That's my karma, must've been a bad b!tch in my last life All I ever do is get my act right I can see the end in my past life I can feel the fear from my past life I can feel the fear So I stay busy, got a bad memory So I stay dizzy, but it still gets to me I can see it so clear [Pre-Chorus] Yeah, that's the reason I get so loud 'Cause no one came when I cried quietly Mm, I was taught how to disappear Oh, I was taught how to disappear [Chorus] So if you can't find me, just know it's in my blood If I stop replying, it's 'cause my mama taught me how to clean My daddy taught me how to lie Told me how to make you think that I was nice Told me how to leave my body Never let me leave his side Still don't know what it's like to be his type Taught me how to disappear Taught me how to disappear
