Girl in the glass

[Intro] Bathroom light buzzing like a warning sign Mascara dried from another bad night I touch the mirror, she touches me back But I don’t know her like that [Verse 1] She’s got my mouth but she talks like a stranger Says, “Go make money, go smile for danger” Hair tied up for a shift I hate Name tag crooked, running late I used to have colors under my skin Now I just clock out and crawl back in Same cheap coffee, same dead eyes Same little “I’m fine” rehearsed outside And everybody wants a version of me That stands up straight and bleeds quietly So I wear her face, I play the part While something old rots in my heart [Pre-Chorus] Then you call me from your bedroom floor Laughing soft through the phone And for a second I remember I was someone before being alone [Chorus] There’s a girl in the glass And she looks like bad news She’s wearing my body But she moves how they told her to move There’s a girl in the glass And I hate when she cries But she keeps looking back Like she knows I’m alive I don’t know her I don’t know me But I swear I saw the old spark breathe [Verse 2] You send me songs you think I’d like I save them all and play them twice You say my name like it still fits Like I’m not just smoke and fingertips You got a smile that ruins my plans I wanna hold it in both my hands But I just joke and change the scene ’Cause wanting you feels too damn clean And I’m scared you’d see the mess I hide The graveyard I’ve been keeping inside All the selves I left for dead Stacked like dishes beside my bed [Pre-Chorus] But when you lean on my shoulder At the back of the train I feel some tiny holy thing Trying to grow through the pain [Chorus] There’s a girl in the glass And she looks like bad news She’s wearing my body But she moves how they told her to move There’s a girl in the glass And I hate when she cries But she keeps looking back Like she knows I’m alive I don’t know her I don’t know me But I swear I saw the old spark breathe [Bridge] I don’t wanna be useful I don’t wanna be brave I don’t wanna be pretty In the shape of a cage I don’t wanna be grateful For a life I can’t taste I don’t wanna keep smiling With a mask on my face I wanna paint my nails badly I wanna sing off-key I wanna dance in the kitchen Where nobody needs me I wanna tell you I love you But I swallow it down ’Cause you’re the last soft place In this hard little town [Breakdown] So I wash my face I let her stare I say, “I know You’re still in there” Not fixed Not clean Not brand new Just trying To come back through [Verse 3] Maybe the old me didn’t die Maybe she hid when the world got loud Maybe she’s under the uniform Kicking her way out Maybe joy is not a lightning strike Maybe it’s dishes and sleep and light Maybe it’s texting you, “made it home” Maybe it’s not being dead alone Maybe passion comes back mean and small Scratching its name into the wall Maybe I don’t have to be who I was To save what she loved [Final Chorus] There’s a girl in the glass And she looks like bad news But she’s done being punished For the hell she got used to There’s a girl in the glass And she’s tired but she’s mine She keeps looking back Like she’s asking for time I don’t know her I don’t know me But I swear I feel the old spark breathe [Outro] You text, “Are you awake?” I type, “Yeah, I’m here” The mirror fogs up And my face disappears For once that feels okay For once I don’t run The girl in the glass And the girl I was Might still become one