Mahal Ko 'Yon, Putangina

[Title: Mahal Ko 'Yon, Putangina] [Intro | solo upright piano, single notes, room ambience, intimate and still] . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . [Verse 1] [Breathy] I still wear the jacket you forgot at mine It smells like cedar and a different life I told my sister I was finally fine Then cried into my lumpia at eleven-five [Pre-Chorus | piano swells, low strings enter beneath, tension building] [Soft then cracking] And I know, I know, I know it's done But my hands still reach in the dark for someone Walang dahilan — I just want you back Even when you were the thing I lacked [Chorus | strings crash in full, piano drives, snare hits hard] [Powerful, raw belt] I loved you like a fool with both eyes open Na-sa-ktan ako, and God, I'd let you do it again I'm not okay, but I'm not broken Mahal ko 'yon, putangina Mahal ko 'yon [Instrumental Break | strings sustain and decay, piano breathes, silence at the edges] . . . . . . . . . . . . . . [Verse 2] [Breathy, close-mic] You used to mispronounce my lola's name I never corrected you — I should have then I kept the birthday card, I kept the shame I kept the habit of defending you to friends [Pre-Chorus | build resumes, strings tighten, snare ghost notes] [Soft then cracking] And I know, I know, I know it's done But memory's a door that won't stay shut Walang dahilan — I just want you near Even knowing what I know from here [Chorus | full crash, strings soaring, piano and drums at peak] [Powerful, raw belt] I loved you like a fool with both eyes open Na-sa-ktan ako, and God, I'd let you do it again I'm not okay, but I'm not broken Mahal ko 'yon, putangina Mahal ko 'yon [Bridge | everything strips back, piano alone, vocal exposed] [Whispered, then rising] Hin-di ki-ta ki-na-ka-li-mu-tan At hin-di ko a-lam kung ba-kit [Powerful] Maybe love was never meant to make sense Maybe I was meant to feel every bit [Belted, voice cracking] I'm not ashamed that I loved something real Even if real was the thing that destroyed me You don't get to tell me how I'm supposed to heal [Build | strings re-enter in waves, piano hammers, snare builds to fill] . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . [Final Chorus | maximalist, strings at full swell, piano and drums crashing] [Belted, raw, voice breaking at the edges] I loved you like a fool with both eyes open Na-sa-ktan ako, and God, I'd let you do it again I'm not okay, but I'm not broken Mahal ko 'yon, putangina Mahal ko 'yon [Outro | piano descends alone, strings fade to a single held note] [Whispered] Ka-ya ii-yak ako At tapos, aalis na [Fade Out | piano note sustains, silence] . . . . . . . . . . . . . .