[Intro: Low Male Voice, Quiet, Tired, Almost Spoken] I’ve been running from pain for far too long. [Verse 1: Deep Male Rap, Raw Confessional Delivery, Slow Deliberate Flow] I’ve been drinking, getting high, And avoiding toothaches. Until I realized that I’m too far gone now, And there’s nowhere to escape. Then began cutting through veins, All while having pulsating headaches. Every beat breaks vertebrae. New week, different tooth to break. When I should have been focused on the root pain. [Brief Pause] Here’s my focus. Headaches, toothaches, root pains, Long days, sleeping pills, deep ache, Sleeping pills again, It bleeds through the next day. Literally lie to me, I tell myself I’m okay, But don’t look for anything or another way, Other than the routes that scream decay. I’ve been betrayed by the thing I can’t run from, But somehow it manages to help me get away. Even if it’s just a couple of minutes, It’s my peace, my only damn break. [Hook: Deep Male Vocals, Hypnotic Repetition, Restrained Melodic Cadence] Word around town, Is that you’ve been spiraling down. Word around town, That addiction is in control of you now. Word around town, You’re a sinking vessel watched by a crowd. Word around town, Word around town. [Verse 2: Introspective Male Rap, Deliberate Pauses, Increasing Tension] What happens when the thing holding you up, Becomes the only thing holding you down? Look around. Look down. You see that dry blood up all over the ground. [Pause] That’s you. You don’t even notice, Because you’re too busy trying to look up, To the point you’re stuck, And the only move you make Is just circling now. [Hook: Deep Male Vocals, Hypnotic Repetition, Slightly Stronger Delivery] Word around town, Is that you’ve been spiraling down. Word around town, That addiction is in control of you now. Word around town, You’re a sinking vessel watched by a crowd. Word around town, Word around town. [Verse 3: Deep Male Rap, Cold Confrontational Delivery, Tighter Rhythmic Flow] You are circling now. Sharks form a circling crowd. They smell the blood in the water, And they are not going to wait for you to drown. [Brief Pause] You are the enemy now. Pound for pound. Smiles to frowns. Town to town. Regular clothes to hospital gowns. We’re going to duke this out Till the real one comes out. [Final Hook: Deep Male Vocals, Emotionally Worn, Restrained Intensity] Word around town, Is that you’ve been spiraling down. Word around town, That addiction is in control of you now. Word around town, You’re a sinking vessel watched by a crowd. Word around town, Word around town. [Verse 3: Deep Male Rap, Cold, Introspective, Increasing Intensity] Everybody knows the habit, nobody knows the history, They can recognize the damage, never question what it did to me. They discuss the deterioration like it’s some kind of mystery, But only study my condition when they’re looking down on me. They see the substance, not the circumstances, See the consequences, never what the cause is. Every conversation turns into a diagnosis, Everybody’s got an answer, nobody knows the questions. They say I’m losing myself, but which version did they know? The one before the drugs, or the one that learned to cope? I’ve been running from a past that never learned to let me go, Now I’m paying interest on pain I never owed. Funny how the cure became another complication, Temporary peace with permanent implications. I mistook the numbness for a form of restoration, Now I’m caught between the craving and the consequences waiting. They only see the wreckage, never what the vessel carried, Never saw the weight aboard before the ship was buried. Word around town is that I’m sinking in the deep, But nobody asks what I’ve been carrying beneath.
