
Messy (Sentimental Lover Part 2)
[Verse 1] My room is cleaner now , but my mind still stained I fixed the mirror, not the things in me I laugh too loud when I’m terrified Say “I’m okay” while I’m losing fights You saw all the chaos all the creepiest evil under my skin The midnight storms I was living in You held my hands like they weren’t broken Like every poison was worth unfolding [Pre-Chorus] And I tried, mm God knows I tried Tried My best But I turn love into a big crash Every time it gets too bright I tried But failed Miserably [Chorus] I’m messy, fucking messy Even when I’m doing my best You loved me more than I loved myself And I ruined it, yes I ruined it Now you’re gone, gone And now a monster sleeps in your place Tell me who’s gonna hold my truth When the pretty version fades? I’m better now, maybe But nobody feels like you Nobody fills the space Nobody feels like you Nobody fills the space [Verse 2] I learned to speak without cutting deep I learned to stay, not always leave I stopped running from every honest feeling But healing came after you stopped believing Now I wear your kindness like a new religion But it still can’t bring you back into the room (In my life…) I changed the ending, changed my old ways Just not right in time to make you stay Can’t make you stay… [Pre-Chorus] And I tried, mm God knows I tried Tried My best But I turn love into a big crash Every time it gets too bright I tried But failed Miserably [Chorus] I’m messy, fucking messy Even when I’m doing my best You loved me more than I loved myself And I ruined it, yes I ruined it Now you’re gone, gone And now a monster sleeps in your place Tell me who’s gonna hold my truth When the pretty version fades? I’m better now, maybe But nobody feels like you Nobody fills the space Nobody feels like you Nobody fills the space [Bridge] (airy / layered vocals) Will somebody love me When I’m not performing? When I’m not glowing? When I’m not easy? Will somebody touch me Without trying to fix me? Or was that kind of love Something that only you could give me? Will somebody sees me? the real me ? [Final Chorus] (soft, emotional, stacked harmonies) [Pre-Chorus] And I tried, mm God knows I tried Tried My best But I turn love into a big crash Every time it gets too bright I tried But failed Miserably [Chorus] I’m messy, fucking messy Even when I’m doing my best You loved me more than I loved myself And I ruined it, yes I ruined it Now you’re gone, gone And now a monster sleeps in your place Tell me who’s gonna hold my truth When the pretty version fades? I’m better now, maybe But nobody feels like you Nobody fills the space Nobody feels like you Nobody fills the space [Chorus] I’m messy, fucking messy Even when I’m doing my best You loved me more than I loved myself And I ruined it, yes I ruined it Now you’re gone, gone And now a monster sleeps in your place Tell me who’s gonna hold my truth When the pretty version fades? I’m better now, maybe But nobody feels like you Nobody fills the space Nobody feels like you Nobody fills the space

