Black out My past Till i burn out of gas And i end up collapsed Blowing Smoke out my ass im A train wreck In disguise Cause The past sent Me to die i feel brainless Cause i tried to blame it For how i Act the way I do Be the way i am Really I should Do Everything I can To fix the Things I knew Would destroy me in the end Im working On myself Im trying To get well I know that I can be A lot When life goes on and I do not I stay in place and then complain Im working hard to change My ways So tell me if you if you need some space And Ill keep working night and day Cause I'm working On myself Ill keep working Till im well Between the relapses And isolation My detachment Then desperation It's no wonder You couldn't take it I tend to take it out I Got Messed Up thoughts In a stressed out mind So I took another pill to Pretend im fine But you knew I wasn't well And You asked me why But i didnt wanna tell So instead i lied but you knew it wasn't real And you told me to be honest But I pushed the to whole ordeal To back of my subconscious And now I gotta deal With the problem I'm causing Im working On myself Im trying To get well I know that I can be A lot When life goes on and I do not I stay in place and then complain Im working hard to change My ways So tell me if you if you need some space And Ill keep working night and day Cause I'm working On myself Ill keep working Till im well I get so Stressed out that im a mess I get pissed off And then depressed And run the risk of Losing my head I don't wanna lose you In the process But I still push you Till you're at your limit Preservation Is New to me So used to Losing things Now Ive become so hollow in my mind And I've become so Shallow that I hide That when I had to wallow up my pride Instead of wallowing inside I pushed you Away from me And I said things I didn't mean Only have myself to blame Cause im who's in control And if I would have changed my ways Then we could have had it all Maybe if I Communicated Maybe if I Wasn't so jaded I wouldn't be this Humiliated (Im working) (On myself) (Im working) (On myself) Im working On myself Im trying To get well I know that I can be A lot When life goes on and I do not I stay in place and then complain Im working hard to change My ways So tell me if you if you need some space And Ill keep working night and day Cause I'm working On myself Ill keep working Till im well
