I slammed that door so many times The handle broke off in my hand Third floor railing calling me Like it had always been the plan I don't remember what we said Just the anger and the shame My feet were moving toward the edge When something whispered out my name (Pre-Chorus - building, drums entering softly) And I don't know if it was God Or just the part of me that knew But something made me stop and turn Before I followed through I WAS HOLDING THE KNIFE TO MY OWN THROAT IN THE CAR COULDN'T SEE PAST THE DARKNESS COULDN'T REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE MY PHONE KEPT RINGING BUT I LET IT GO TO BLACK I POSTED MY GOODBYE BUT SOMETHING PULLED ME BACK ANCHOR YOU'RE MY ANCHOR ANCHOR WHEN I'M DROWNING IN THE DEEP The photo went up before I thought The knife against my skin Everyone saw my final words Before I could take them back again Deleted it but screenshots live Forever in the cloud The police called, I finally answered Everything came crashing down (Pre-Chorus - drums more insistent) They took me to the clinic Put me in a room with strangers' pain And I heard stories just like mine Childhood written in the same refrain I WAS HOLDING THE KNIFE TO MY OWN THROAT IN THE CAR COULDN'T SEE PAST THE DARKNESS COULDN'T REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE MY PHONE KEPT RINGING BUT I LET IT GO TO BLACK I POSTED MY GOODBYE BUT SOMETHING PULLED ME BACK ANCHOR YOU'RE MY ANCHOR ANCHOR WHEN I'M SINKING IN TOO DEEP In that clinic room Survivors sharing scars I heard my childhood In their voices in the dark And when I spoke my truth For the first time out loud The weight began to lift The shame began to drown Every time I shared it Another piece came back The man I thought I'd lost Was underneath the black My wife (layer: "anchor") My daughter (layer: "anchor") They're the reason that I stayed (layer: "you're my anchor") My wife (layer: "anchor") My daughter (layer: "anchor") They're the reason I got saved (layer: "you're my anchor") THEY'RE THE REASON I'M STILL HERE I WAS HOLDING THE KNIFE TO MY OWN THROAT IN THE CAR BUT NOW I SEE THE LIGHT NOW I REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE MY PHONE KEPT RINGING AND I FINALLY CALLED BACK I POSTED MY GOODBYE BUT GOD SAID "NOT YET" ANCHOR (everyone) YOU'RE MY ANCHOR ANCHOR (louder) WHEN THE CURRENT PULLS TOO STRONG ANCHOR YOU'RE MY ANCHOR ANCHOR YOU'RE THE REASON I HOLD ON I'm grateful you're still here with me (I'm grateful, I'm grateful) I'm grateful I can hold you close (I'm grateful, I'm grateful) I'm grateful for the second chance (I'm grateful, I'm grateful) I'm grateful I came home Third floor railing Empty now I walk past it every day And thank God I turned around "Stay."
