[Verse 1] It took so much just to hate the girl I’d see, To wage a war against the soul within me. I’d wake up just to tear myself apart, Then spend my day convincing my own heart. I wasn’t worthy, that I was born to fail, I deserved every storm, every wound, every nail. I’d drain my mind until I couldn’t stand, Just to keep my life the way I’d planned. [Pre-Chorus] I worked so hard to keep myself confined, Built my own prison, brick by brick, inside of my mind. I called it fate, I called my suffering home, Too scared to think I'd ever become my own. [Chorus] Oh, what an arduous past I've had to bear, Exhausting myself just to live within my own despair. It took more strength to hate than to believe, That I was worthy of a life that I couldn’t see. Now I’m laying down the weight I used to be, It’s a hell of a lot easier to just let myself be me. [Verse 2] I’d rehearse every reason I was never enough, Turn every little mistake into something rough. I’d twist every truth till it fit my shame, Then despise my reflection for carrying the blame. I'd convinced myself that this was all I’d ever know, That I was made to hurt and had nowhere to go. But look at all that energy I used to spend, Just to keep a broken story from reaching its end. [Pre-Chorus] I fought my worth like it was mine to lose, Refused the grace I had the right to choose. I bent beneath a burden I could finally release, When I stopped fighting myself, I finally found peace. [Chorus] Oh, what an arduous past I've had to bear, Exhausting myself just to live within my own despair. It took more strength to hate than to believe, That I was worthy of a life that I couldn’t see. Now I’m laying down the weight I used to be, It’s a hell of a lot easier to just let myself be me. [Bridge] What if I was never the things I’d say? What if my worth never once faded away? What if the voice that kept calling me weak, Was just all of the pain that I couldn’t yet speak? I don’t need to earn what was always mine, Don’t need to suffer just to prove I can shine. The hardest work was believing the lie, Now I’m done trying to make myself justify why. [Breakdown] I am worthy. I always have been. I am not my failures, my scars, or my sins. I deserve the love that I was taught to deny. I was never born just to suffer and cry. I don’t owe my pain another damn day. I can love myself and still find my way. No more exhausting my soul just so that I could survive. I’m letting myself be — I’m letting myself thrive. [Final Chorus] Oh, what an arduous past that I've survived, Spending all of that energy just to stay alive. I fought myself harder than life ever could, Mistook all of my suffering for something that's good. Now I’m reclaiming the person that I used to conceal, And giving myself permission to just be real. I don’t need to break just to know that I’m enough, I don’t need to bleed just to prove I am tough. The peace that I was chasing was waiting within me, It’s so much easier to just let myself be. [Outro] No more rehearsing the reasons I’m wrong, No more convincing myself that I don’t belong. I spent years fighting who I thought I had to be, Now the easiest thing in the world… Is just being me.
