IT SCARES ME THAT YOU SEE ME / Megijeszt, hogy látsz engem

IT SCARES ME THAT YOU SEE ME [Intro — Male Vocal, intimate] All my life I’ve been waiting for someone to see beyond what I learned to show the world, and find me underneath it all. Now you’re here… and I don’t know why I still want to hide from you. [Verse 1 — Male Vocal] You never touched the wound, you only stood beside me, yet light appeared where I had never dared to go. There is no blame in your eyes, no judgment and no shame, yet every buried part of me is waking in the dark. I longed for someone to understand me. Now it scares me that you truly do. [Pre-Chorus — Male Vocal] You did not create this darkness in me. But here beside you I can no longer deny that it exists. [Chorus — Alternating Vocals] [Male Vocal] It scares me that you see me, there is nowhere left to hide. When you move closer to my heart, I meet myself inside your eyes. [Female Vocal] I’m not looking deeper to change the person that you are. I don’t love only those parts of you that are easy to reveal. [Male Vocal] It scares me that you see me, and I don’t know if I should stay. [Female Vocal] You may still hide from me — but I cannot hide you from yourself. [Both Vocals] In real intimacy, we do not only meet each other. We meet ourselves. [Verse 2 — Female Vocal] I see when you project on me the pain you carry deep inside. An ancient wound awakens, and suddenly I’m the one to blame. But I will not take upon myself what never belonged to me. I also ask myself: what does this light reveal in me? Because I do not always see you as clearly as I believe. Sometimes in you I recognize a face of mine I had forgotten. I do not stand above you. I don’t pretend I know you fully. I have only traveled deep enough within not to fear what I can feel in you. [Pre-Chorus — Female Vocal] I don’t want to decipher you. I want to know the one who breathes behind the armor. [Chorus — Alternating Vocals] [Female Vocal] Your depth does not frighten me, you don’t have to live in light. I don’t desire perfection — I desire all of who you are. [Male Vocal] If you see the shadow in me, will you still be able to love me? [Female Vocal] Love is not made real by allowing only beauty to exist. [Male Vocal] It scares me that you see me. [Female Vocal] And I am also changed by how close you let me come. [Verse 3 — Male Vocal] Every ancient wall beside you loses the name it used to bear. I see fear behind my anger, and a plea beneath my silence. The distance I create between us may have never been about you. I’m only scared that if I stay, everything I thought I was will fall away. It would be easier to say that you are simply too much for me than to confess the truth: it is not you I cannot bear… it is the person I discover in myself when I am with you. [Bridge — Alternating Vocals, very close] [Male Vocal] If I tell you that you caused my pain… [Female Vocal] Perhaps I am only the doorway through which it came to light. [Male Vocal] If I keep my distance… [Female Vocal] Perhaps it isn’t me you’re running from. [Male Vocal] If I cannot meet your eyes… [Female Vocal] Perhaps you fear the gaze of your own soul. [Male Vocal] What if I cannot accept what you can see in me? [Female Vocal] I can accept you. But I cannot make you accept yourself. [One-second silence] [Both Vocals — full 360° opening] TRUE INTIMACY HAS A PRICE: WE CANNOT REMAIN HIDDEN FROM OURSELVES. [Final Verse — Male Vocal, fully melodic] It scares me that you see me, the light has come too close. It isn’t you I cannot love — I cannot face myself just yet. This closeness has revealed everything I buried deep. I have to go, though saying it hurts: I still don’t know how to stay. [Female Response — grounded melodic vocal] I see you without judging, but I cannot make you stay. I cannot walk your road for you, or lose myself along the way. I love you in your light and shadow, but I cannot stay in your place. What you still cannot face within, I cannot face for you. [Final Chorus — powerful alternating vocals] [Male Vocal] It scares me that you see me, so now I have to leave. I am not running away from you — I’m running from myself. [Female Vocal] I see you, but I won’t hold you, I love you and release you. I will not abandon who I am — I cannot follow you there. [One-second silence] [Female Vocal — sustained and emotional] If you have to go… go in peace. [Outro — Female Vocal, clear melodic ending] I do not let you go because I cannot see who you are. I let you go because right now you have to leave. I love you, but I will not ask you to stay against yourself. I will not force you to let yourself be seen. If you have to go… go in peace. [End — decisive final chord — no restart] MEGIJESZT, HOGY LÁTSZ ENGEM [Intro — Male Vocal, intimate] Egész életemben arra vártam, hogy valaki ne csak azt lássa, amit megtanultam mutatni, hanem engem lásson mögötte. Most itt vagy… és nem tudom, miért akarok mégis elbújni előled. [Verse 1 — Male Vocal] Nem nyúltál a sebhez, csak mellém álltál, mégis fény gyúlt ott, ahol eddig nem jártam. A szemedben nincs vád, nincs ítélet, nincs szégyen, mégis minden eltemetett részem felébred bennem mélyen. Arra vágytam, hogy valaki értsen. Most megijeszt, hogy valóban értesz. [Pre-Chorus — Male Vocal] Nem te hoztad létre bennem ezt a sötétet. Csak melletted már nem tagadhatom, hogy létezik. [Chorus — Alternating Vocals] [Male Vocal] Megijeszt, hogy látsz engem, nem maradt rajtam rejtekhely. Ha közelebb lépsz a szívemhez, önmagam ér utol benned. [Female Vocal] Nem azért nézek mélyre, hogy megváltoztassalak. Nemcsak azt szeretem benned, amit könnyű megmutatnod. [Male Vocal] Megijeszt, hogy látsz engem, és nem tudom, maradjak-e. [Female Vocal] Előlem még elbújhatsz — de önmagad elől nem rejthetlek el. [Both Vocals] A valódi közelségben nemcsak egymással találkozunk. Önmagunkkal is. [Verse 2 — Female Vocal] Látom, amikor rám vetíted azt, ami benned fáj. Egy régi seb felébred, és hirtelen én leszek a hibás. De nem veszem magamra mindazt, ami nem enyém. Én is megkérdezem: mit mutat rólam ez a fény? Mert én sem látlak mindig olyan tisztán, ahogy hiszem. Benned néha önmagam elfeledett arcát figyelem. Nem állok föléd, nem állítom, hogy ismerlek. Csak elég mélyre mentem magamban, hogy ne féljek attól, amit benned érzek. [Pre-Chorus — Female Vocal] Nem akarlak megfejteni. Azt szeretném megismerni, aki a védekezés mögött lélegzik. [Chorus — Alternating Vocals] [Female Vocal] Nem riaszt el a mélységed, nem kell mindig fényben állnod. Nem a tökéletes embert, az egész lényedet kívánom. [Male Vocal] Ha meglátod az árnyékomat, ugyanúgy tudsz majd szeretni? [Female Vocal] A szeretet nem attól valódi, hogy csak a szépet engedi létezni. [Male Vocal] Megijeszt, hogy látsz engem. [Female Vocal] Engem is megváltoztat, hogy ilyen közel engedsz. [Verse 3 — Male Vocal] Melletted minden régi fal elveszíti a nevét. A harag mögött félelmet, a csend mögött kérést látok. A távolság, amit ellened emelek, talán nem is rólad szól. Csak félek, hogy ha itt maradok, lehullik minden, amit önmagamról gondolok. Könnyebb azt mondanom, hogy túl sok vagy nekem, mint bevallani: nem téged nem bírlak el, hanem azt, akit melletted meglátok önmagamban. [Bridge — Alternating Vocals, very close] [Male Vocal] Ha azt mondom, te okozod a fájdalmamat… [Female Vocal] Lehet, hogy csak én vagyok az ajtó, amin keresztül előjött. [Male Vocal] Ha távolságot tartok… [Female Vocal] Lehet, hogy nem elől