the world seemed beautiful I was taught Christ at a young age amazed what he wanted was perfect I looked around and they were faking I was a kid telling them stop watching I was ignored OOOOHHH OK THAT'S HOW YOU WANT IT fine I'm still a kid but minding my business just like you want, don't mind me getting bullied in elementary "oh she seems too kind she seems so stupid" YOU THINK I DIDN'T CATCH THAT I OWNED IT even when it secretly hurt I LEARNED ALL YOUR PATTERNS AND I DIDN'T OPEN UP and you STILL THOUGHT GIRL WAS CRAZY fine I'll stay positive but things changed.. I was 13 and my mother died of cancer and they don't know she saw Christ before we were born she was converted from Catholic to Christian but I'm too different people won't believe a girl like me I FELT WHAT SHE FELT THO DID THE OTHER MEMBERS DIDN'T from state to state we went (years later) but something was on the TV it was a documentary my dad turned on and walked away I looked at the TV the dude lived a perfect life he went to church since a kid and taught kids at a church he was sweet like me but when he died he went to hell and I was like WHAAAAAAAAT (the dude) saw Christ he went to heaven and heard "my will for you was greater than this" I have learned that day "don't do what you wanna do for God but do what God wants you to do".. a few months later we got evicted we lived in a hot truck I had the Bible my mother gave me with her message I would read it read it and then learn on Facebook and the reading cured my emptyness learning so much but too scared to tell them I'm too different anyways but WAIT......the Bible says if I don't tell them the truth THEIR SPIRITUAL BLOOD IS ON MY HANDS.... NNNOOOOOOO!!!... I'M IN A DEEP DEEP DITCH SOMEBODY HELP ME!! I'M TOO SCARED TO TALK!! I'M TOO DIFFERENT TO BE UNDERSTOOD!! EVERYONE I LOVE WOULD DIE IN ETERNAL LAVA IF I DON'T!!!...... I'm not allowed to.. save their souls.. cuz they won't understand I'm just gonna be their disappointment.. I have went to a whole new world experiences galore Christ visits me again and I wake up testimonies galore I wish my family knows I need to be brave.. a few houses happened I do be brave but THEY GOT MAD ALL MY NIGHTMARES CAME TRUE AND I WAS SLOWLY NEVER FEELING ALLOWED EVER AGAIN but I need to feel allowed.. I saw demons going in my nephews and nieces I had a nightmare that I wouldn't be able to talk to them for 3 years and slowly see them spiritually die by the infestation of demons then the demon popped up with the errie feeling and I woke up crying and screaming.. I was the only one awake they would try to teach me "not to act in these weird ways" you killing yourself for telling me that tho..
