The first time I saw you beneath the surface I mistook longing for a kind of slow current all silver mouth and impossible soft wings moving like nightclub silk through black water while cheap blue LEDs flickered against the glass and every body there turned briefly toward the darkness I followed you gladly into that warm darkness past sodium exits and the shimmering oil-slick surface past sleeping jellyfish and observation tunnel glass where your body bent around me like a lunar current and every speaker in the building leaked drowned water through the cathedral architecture of your wings There are animals that flee and animals with wings and then there is this third thing: devotional darkness the kind that blooms quietly beneath warm water the kind that never fully reaches the lit surface You brushed my wrist once—small tidal current— and I watched my own reflection dissolve in the glass [suno tags: beat drop, soft rave kick, breathy alto, cassette saturation, oceanic sensuality] We danced badly beside the touch-tank glass your shoulders opening and closing like patient wings while bass rolled through the room in a narcotic current and somewhere behind us lived the enormous darkness all those hidden bodies beneath the public surface all those secret mouths opening under the water I think desire is mostly pressure and water the face you make reflected in aquarium glass the ache of wanting something below the visible surface your hands spanning briefly outward like wings your pupils huge as trench-floor darkness mine caught helplessly inside your gravitational current By then the whole room had become a current blue strobes rippling like phosphorescence through water someone laughing softly at the edge of the darkness someone drawing little hearts into the sweating glass while you moved around me in widening velvet wings never touching fully, never breaking the surface (Envoi) And still I dream of your impossible wings of that submerged and aching tidal current of your mouth rising briefly toward the surface while all the world turned softly into water blue lights dissolving against the aquarium glass and both of us descending willingly into the darkness
