Downhill From There

I didn't know what I felt Never knew how to act I took out all this pain on ones that couldn't fight back I couldn't understand what it is that I did until that one fateful day when the panic set in My own minds an enemy (It's never enough) Only ever succeeded in failing (Waste of Space) It's been just downhill from there (No happy endings) Only lies and disappointment My world fell apart thinking what have I done No punishment rendered felt like it was ever enough as I laid in my bed with tears I couldn't hold back I punched and I cursed myself till my world went to black My own minds an enemy (It's never enough) Only ever succeeded in failing (Waste of Space) It's been just downhill from there (No happy endings) Only lies and disappointment To this day I don't know all the punches I threw at the face of this monster that I thought that I knew crying up at the ceiling in the dark of the night thinking how will I ever put an end to this fight My own minds an enemy (It's never enough) Only ever succeeded in failing (Waste of Space) It's been just downhill from there (No happy endings) Only lies and disappointment I can never go back it will never be fixed I'll live with this monster until my heart finally quits but when that day finally comes I hope I'll get to see you and say how I'm sorry before my penance comes due