Wake up already tired before I even move A million thoughts hitting all at once in my head Keys in my hand, but I’m just standing still Trying to leave, but I don’t know if I can Phone lights up but I just let it ring Every little sound feels like everything Rehearse every word that I’ll never say By the time I’m ready, it fades away It’s not that I don’t wanna go It’s just that I already know Every step feels like a spotlight Like I’m the one they’re watching Don’t call me shy, you don’t see inside Every heartbeat racing, I can’t breathe right Don’t say I’m “fine,” or I “just need time” When even saying “hi” feels like a lie It’s not introvert, it’s something worse Every second guessing every word I’d rather stay where it doesn’t hurt But life don’t stop, it only gets harder Slip inside just to avoid their eyes Find a corner where I can minimize Laugh at things I don’t even hear Just to make it seem like I belong here Every glance feels like it’s too much The silence screams when I don’t say enough They don’t see the war in my head Just a quiet voice and a smile instead It’s not that I don’t wanna try I just don’t trust what’s in my mind But every room just amplifies Every doubt I try to hide Don’t call me shy, you don’t see inside Every heartbeat racing, I can’t breathe right Don’t say I’m “fine,” or I “just need time” When even saying “hi” feels like a lie It’s not introvert, it’s something worse Every second guessing every word I’d rather stay where it doesn’t hurt But life don’t stop, it only gets harder I can’t shut off what’s in my head Plans fall apart before they begin And that voice just keeps coming back again The smallest things, turning into storms Like I freeze up right outside the door And I hate that I look okay While I’m trying just to get through the day Don’t call me shy, I’m barely alright Every step outside feels like a fight This doesn’t define me, but it’s always there You don’t know what it’s like to live like this It’s not introvert, it’s something worse It’s not who I am, it’s what I face I’d give anything just to feel okay But I still show up anyway Yeah I still show up anyway… Even when I wanna fade away
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