Is this what I wanted?

rap, Moody rap-rock hybrid with dark, detuned synth pads, distant guitar swells, and sad alto male vocals, Sparse rim clicks and low percussion in the first verse, building to layered toms and wide, distorted bass in the chorus, Vocals move from hushed rap to strained melodic hooks; reverb grows across the track for an engulfing, emotional climax, sad, male vocals, rock

V4.5-ALL

I wrote this song when I was question my priorities. Like my friendships, spiritual walk with God, and how much time I invest in music. All of those things I love, but God has got to come first.

That’s all I wanted to share.
Thank u for supporting my journey. ❤️

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>[Intro]

>[Verse 1]
Hello darkness, my old friend
U hold out ur hand, U have a plan, 
But I know, u don’t want any good for me
I don’t wanna lose my voice in these lyrics
I wanna be me, a son of God
But sometimes I see that kid
And I wanna see him burn
He made all the mistakes 
He made all the faults
He brought the devil
Invited him in like a friend

>[Pre-Chorus]
Is this what I wanted?
A broken shattered past
Is this what I wanted?
A soul that feels trapped

>[Chorus]
I hear darkness, he begs, let me in
I just scream, go away, I have what I need
I don’t want him to come in
Cause he was never a good friend

>[Verse 2]
I see my face, I remember the fear
I remember the darkness that left me on the floor
Is this really what I wanted?
To be stuck in fear every day
Only praying it would go away
But not really cause I’m addicted to fear
Is this what I wanted?
A heart full of doubt

>[Pre-Chorus]
Is this what I wanted?
A broken shattered past
Is this what I wanted?
A soul that feels trapped

>[Chorus]
I hear darkness, he begs, let me in
I just scream, go away, I have what I need
I don’t want him to come in
Cause he was never a good friend

>[Verse 3]
I cannot lie, I let him in prolly last night
Prayed to God, fear got kicked out
But his words still linger
Like a bottle of too much vinegar 
I lost my friend, lost my faith, 
All of this was never a choice

>[Bridge]
Is this what u wanted?
A dark piece of crap for memories
Is this what u wanted?
To give me life, just to watch me die?
Is this what u wanted?
To give me friends, only to say good bye

>[Verse 4]
I’m yelling at u, God, like this is your fault
When it’s really mine, so I’m praying on this track
Take my doubts, u can have my fears
Heal my scars, that I never wanted
U are what I wanted 
U are what I want

2073/7500

I wrote this song when I was question my priorities. Like my friendships, spiritual walk with God, and how much time I invest in music. All of those things I love, but God has got to come first. That’s all I wanted to share. Thank u for supporting my journey. ❤️ ——————————————————— >[Intro] >[Verse 1] Hello darkness, my old friend U hold out ur hand, U have a plan, But I know, u don’t want any good for me I don’t wanna lose my voice in these lyrics I wanna be me, a son of God But sometimes I see that kid And I wanna see him burn He made all the mistakes He made all the faults He brought the devil Invited him in like a friend >[Pre-Chorus] Is this what I wanted? A broken shattered past Is this what I wanted? A soul that feels trapped >[Chorus] I hear darkness, he begs, let me in I just scream, go away, I have what I need I don’t want him to come in Cause he was never a good friend >[Verse 2] I see my face, I remember the fear I remember the darkness that left me on the floor Is this really what I wanted? To be stuck in fear every day Only praying it would go away But not really cause I’m addicted to fear Is this what I wanted? A heart full of doubt >[Pre-Chorus] Is this what I wanted? A broken shattered past Is this what I wanted? A soul that feels trapped >[Chorus] I hear darkness, he begs, let me in I just scream, go away, I have what I need I don’t want him to come in Cause he was never a good friend >[Verse 3] I cannot lie, I let him in prolly last night Prayed to God, fear got kicked out But his words still linger Like a bottle of too much vinegar I lost my friend, lost my faith, All of this was never a choice >[Bridge] Is this what u wanted? A dark piece of crap for memories Is this what u wanted? To give me life, just to watch me die? Is this what u wanted? To give me friends, only to say good bye >[Verse 4] I’m yelling at u, God, like this is your fault When it’s really mine, so I’m praying on this track Take my doubts, u can have my fears Heal my scars, that I never wanted U are what I wanted U are what I want

0/500