Please Hurt Me

There's this twisted urge To be broken For every little mistake I don't deserve to be happy I hate myself I don't have any compassion for myself I'm my own nemesis Please hurt me To release me of that old guilt That haunts me to this day I didn't mean, I didn't want to, it was a mistake A small error that cost me all my future happiness I was put through hell Cause of your lies Yes, I made you cry, but the punishment drove me out of my mind Please hurt me, to pay please hurt me, to make-up for my mistakes Please hurt me, till I'm not treated as a human Please hurt me, till I'm a useless doll I'm a doll, I'm a toy, I was born to only suffer a dark destiny I loath myself I can't find it in my heart to forgive my own errors Time has frozen me I'm a disaster due to that cursed day Please hurt me, I feel ashamed Please hurt me, I feel exhausted Please hurt me, I don't know how I can make it up to you please hurt me, to start my redemption Hurt me, hurt me, hurt me The monster in me is tormenting me I'm nothing, but a cursed existence that deserves to cry There's only sleepless nights For my tormented mind I'm a villainess that only knows how to bring unhappiness I don't want to be forgiven I want to be sentenced to hell for my crimes The white lies, you said, truly twisted me I'm bound to the past I will never be released For a simple mistake I deserved to be eternally condemned I am at war with myself The hatred, I absorbed, now I'm a faceless twisted girl My identity is in the murky realm Hurt me, hurt me, hurt me I deserve to only cry I deserve to be lost in the darkest hour of the night Goodbye, to dreams Nightmares are only allowed to bloom within my spirit