Blue light midnight, phone on my chest

[verse 1] Blue light midnight, phone on my chest Typing then deleting like it’s a test You saw my story, didn’t say a thing I act like I’m chill, but my pulse disagrees I post like I’m bored, like I don’t even care But I checked if you watched it like three times, I swear [hook] I’m not part of you, that’s what I tell my friends Say your name like a joke, then I say it again I’m too cool to fall, too smart to try But I melt every time you leave me on read at night [verse 2] Snap back, half-smile, camera tilted low I pretend it’s nothing, but I staged it though You send one word, I overthink tone Put my heart on airplane mode, still feel it buzz in my bones I like your flaws, hate that I do Hate that my mood depends on something you do [hook] I’m not part of you, don’t flatter yourself Just a casual crush I keep on the shelf I don’t double-text, I don’t chase signs But I reread your messages like they’re mine [verse 3] Your name lights up and my walls cave in I laugh it off, but I’m paper-thin I say “whatever,” like I’ve been hurt before Like I don’t want more than what we are or were If you asked me straight, I’d probably lie Say I’m fine being friends, then cry on the ride [hook] I’m not part of you, yeah that’s the lie I tell myself just to get by I play it cool, I play it safe But I’d jump if you told me to stay [bridge] Maybe you don’t see me the way I see you Maybe this is nothing, maybe it’s true But if you ever feel what I’m trying to hide I’d drop the act, I’d step outside [hook] I’m not part of you—say it again If I say it enough maybe it’ll pretend I don’t care, I don’t feel, I don’t lose But I wrote this whole song just thinking of you [outro] Blue light fading, phone face-down Trying to forget you, scrolling you out If loving you quiet is all I can do Then I’ll be not into you Just not part of you