[Verse 1] I see a thousand different versions when I close my eyes, A thousand little universes underneath the skies. One where I caught the early train, one where I missed the light, One where I never made it home on an ordinary night. I see the streets I never walked, the doors I passed each day, The strangers who might know my name in worlds a choice away. A thousand kitchens, thousand keys, a thousand different beds, A thousand ways to wake tomorrow, a thousand roads ahead. I see a woman in a window with my face and different scars, She’s got a husband and a mortgage and a driveway full of cars. Another’s sleeping on a sofa, watching headlights cross the wall, Another never learned to trust that anybody comes when called. I cannot tell which one’s the lucky one, which one deserved the pain, Which one would trade her whole existence just to live through mine again. I only know I’m standing here, still breathing in this room, While every road I never traveled disappears into the gloom. [Pre-Chorus 1] I used to think the world was written, Every ending carved in stone. Now I see a thousand futures And not one of them is owed. [Chorus] I’ve seen a thousand ways to disappear, A thousand endings drawing near. A thousand lives that could’ve been, A thousand doors I never went in. But here I am, against the odds, With borrowed breath and battle scars. I don’t know why this life is mine, But I’m grateful I survived the other timelines. [Verse 2] I see the night I almost answered when the wrong name lit my screen, A future waiting in the headlights of a car I’d never seen. I see the years I’d spend convincing myself misery was love, With my hands against a window watching birds fly high above. There’s a version who forgave too soon, another who never did, One who learned to speak her mind, one who kept her feelings hid. I see the years unravel with each different choice I make, A thousand futures hanging on the chances that I take. I used to count the close calls like a debt against my name, As though surviving meant the universe could someday make a claim. But pain is not a prophecy, and scars don’t make a sign That everything I lost was meant to lead me to this life of mine. I don’t thank the ones who hurt me, don’t romanticize the fall, Don’t believe that I was chosen to endure it all. I’m grateful for the quiet days that never make demands, That never ask me to prove my worth through suffering I withstand. [Pre-Chorus 2] I see the futures getting quieter, The distant roads begin to fade. There’s a thousand ways to lose tomorrow, Only one to live today. [Chorus] I’ve seen a thousand ways to disappear, A thousand endings drawing near. A thousand lives that could’ve been, A thousand doors I never went in. But here I am, against the odds, With borrowed breath and battle scars. I don’t know why this life is mine, But I’m grateful I survived the other timelines. [Bridge] The cities disappear, the highways turn to dust, A thousand different futures lose the shape of what I was. The faces in the windows fade like writing in the rain, Until the only world that’s left is one that knows my name. The room is getting darker, there’s a shadow on the floor, A voice I love is calling from the other side of the door. I hear the footsteps coming, feel the warmth against my skin, And thank a thousand vanished lives for the one I’m living in. [Final Chorus] I’ve seen a thousand ways to disappear, A thousand endings drawing near. A thousand lives that could’ve been, A thousand doors I never went in. But here I am, against the odds, With borrowed breath and battle scars. I don’t know why this life is mine, But I’m grateful I survived the other timelines.
