DeadSurvivin’

[(X-Intro-X)] low, tired, almost spoken, like the thought arrives before the beat does [(X-Verse-X)] intimate, breathy, conversational, with slight grit on “hurt,” “bones,” “slow” [(X-Pre-Chorus-X)] rising tension, stacked background hums, heartbeat kick begins tightening [(X-Chorus-X)] gritty singing, wide electronic lift, repeated hook should feel panicked but melodic [(X-Bridge-X)] strip drums halfway down, let the vocal become clear and human [(X-Final Chorus-X)] bigger harmonies, distorted bass bloom, ad-libs on “my soul won’t let go” [Intro] Uh Yeah Dead or alive, I don’t know But I feel it in my bones [Verse 1] Feel my fate comin’ close Dead or alive, I don’t know Guess I’ll never know But I feel it in my bones I’m more scared of hurt than gone More scared of waking up wrong Body still here, but the peace moved on Nerve in my tooth singin’ pain like a song Slow death, no, I don’t want that Horse kick, train slip, fall where the tracks at Roller coaster drop with my soul in the backseat Bad timing, life never ask me After my shift, I’m groggy and human Thinking ’bout souls like, “Where do they move in?” Egg hold the room where the first light blooms Sperm strike the match, but the temple was wombed Fifty-fifty? Maybe fifty-one Maybe the egg holds more of the sun Maybe a newborn soul don’t age Maybe it wakes up clean on a blank white page [Pre-Chorus] And it goes Feel my fate comin’ close Dead or alive, I don’t know But I feel it in my bones Takin’ in my last breath And I’m scared of what’s next Not the dark, not the end I’m scared the pain don’t rest [Chorus] I’d rather be dead Than surviving like that I’d rather be dead Than trapped where the hurt comes back I’d rather be dead Than alive in a body that’s fighting I’d rather be dead Than surviving, surviving But my soul won’t let go No, my soul won’t let go I don’t wanna leave I just don’t wanna bleed slow [Verse 2] Afterlife sound like a fairytale room Second life, new sky, different moon Do babies grow up where the spirits go? Does a soul have an age when it leaves the bones? Where was I before breath had a name? Before blood had a rhythm, before hurt had a frame? Was I waiting in the egg like a spark in a vault? Or did I arrive when the lightning got caught? I don’t know, I don’t know That’s the part that shake me Death is a door, but pain is a place And I don’t want it to take me So I duck every crash I pray through the static Life got sharp edges And my nerves feel magnetic [Pre-Chorus 2] And it goes Feel my fate comin’ close Dead or alive, I don’t know But I feel it in my bones Takin’ in my last breath And I’m scared of what’s next Not the dark, not the end I’m scared the pain don’t rest [Chorus] I’d rather be dead Than surviving like that I’d rather be dead Than trapped where the hurt comes back I’d rather be dead Than alive in a body that’s fighting I’d rather be dead Than surviving, surviving But my soul won’t let go No, my soul won’t let go I don’t wanna leave I just don’t wanna bleed slow [Bridge] I don’t wanna die I just wanna be whole Don’t wanna wake up With a war in my bones I don’t wanna die I just wanna stay free If I survive it Let me still feel like me [Final Chorus] I’d rather be dead Than surviving like that I’d rather be dead Than trapped where the hurt comes back I’d rather be dead Than alive in a body that’s fighting I’d rather be dead Than surviving, surviving But my soul won’t let go No, my soul won’t let go I don’t wanna leave I just don’t wanna bleed slow [Outro] Yeah, yeah Dead or alive, I don’t know But I feel it in my bones My soul won’t let go My soul won’t let go I don’t wanna leave I just don’t wanna bleed slow