► NOTES A small tribute to a good friend who has been fighting cancer for several years. ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ ► WORKFLOW [1] LYRICS (Simple Mode) https://suno.com/s/MYzy8OQmr3KT63QM [2] INSTRUMENTAL (Advanced + GPT) https://suno.com/s/BKLzAkUd9rv67yhP [3] VOCAL VERSION (Cover) Instrumental + Lyrics https://suno.com/s/G8CCacA4M9Hel8Sm [4] STUDIO MIX Gain: └─ All stems +5 dB EQ Presets: ├─ Vocals ......................... Vocal ├─ Backing Vocals ....... Vocal ├─ Drums ......................... Modern ├─ Bass ............................. Flat ├─ Percussion ................ Air ├─ Synth ......................... Clarity └─ FX .................................. Air ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ ► LYRICS [Intro] [low vocal register] Doctor said “sit down” Like it’s some sitcom Bills in a big stack Faith in a small box [Verse 1] IV pole like a sidekick Bruise ring ’round every vein Rent due on the first of But I’m buyin’ time, not a chain Pink band on my wrist like a line-up tag They scan my arm, not the pain in my dad Nurse smile thin, says “you covered?” I laugh once “Girl, I’m smothered” Maxed cards, sellin’ all my sneakers Mom’s ring sittin’ in the pawn shop freezer Hospital gown, back wide Still they want my last dime Health plan read like a ransom note “Sign here, bleed slow, still owe” [Chorus] I’m still that bitch in a hospital bed Scars like script that your God never read You see a monster when you look at my chest But I’m a stage IV saint, say it with your whole neck I’m broke, I’m bald, I’m sick, I’m blessed Middle finger up while they pray I regress You can stare, you can point, you can call me a threat I spit on your shoes, then I cash my own check [Verse 2] Red hats on the TV Talking ’bout “personal choice” Same ones at the clinic Won’t look me in the face, just their voice “Shoulda saved up” “Shoulda lived right” They scroll past my GoFund To tip some guy online They see the port in my chest, think I’m cursed Say “thoughts and prayers” But they want me worse You chant for life till the baby cry But a grown woman sick? Guess I’m fine to die They flinch when I take my wig off Tattooed skull like a blackout mask You see fear, I see a war crown Every step back, I’m swingin’ back fast Chemo drip, but the drip still mean Ashy lips, but I talk obscene Rappin’ in a mask, breath smell like steel Still sharper than the scalpel that cut that deal [Pre-Chorus] You can’t shame me I did shame already Puked on my pride Learned to walk unsteady Now every stumble turn stomp Every cough turn chant Every needle that they stuck me Built the woman that I am [Bridge] [whispered vocals] Look me in my bloodshot eyes Say I’m lazy, say I lied Say I blew all of my time You don’t know what broke look like You ain’t cried on a plastic chair While the billing rep did a little math in the air Said “pick lungs or lights, keep one on” Now tell me who the monster is, go on [spoken, venomous] Y’all love a fighter till she fight you Love survivors till they sue you Love miracles when they’re quiet Hate a bald bitch startin’ riots [Outro] Soft beep in the dark room I hum my own anthem If this the system’s big show I’m the wrong one to cast in Spit on the floor, let it stain that tile If sickness made me savage I been holy all the while
