HARDER THAN JOY

Intro teeth on the beat breath learning how to hurt count me in count me broken Verse 1 I smiled too fast it cracked my face happiness hit me like a concrete wall hands up no reason why I forgot the question kept screaming “yes” Pre-Chorus they said feel good so I clenched my jaw they said right now so I lost the floor Chorus HARDER THAN JOY harder than joy it doesn’t love me it deploys HARDER THAN JOY harder than joy fun with a knife pressed to my voice Verse 2 confetti in my lungs glitter in my blood I’m not alive I’m correctly loud counting smiles like broken teeth every laugh a minor injury Bridge don’t stop don’t stop don’t stop being okay don’t stop don’t stop even if it hurts to stay (looping, degrading) okay okay okay okay okay Break I danced because I was told I jumped because the sound said now my body learned the rhythm before my brain learned how Chorus (Distorted) HARDER THAN JOY harder than joy celebration mode destroy deploy HARDER THAN JOY harder than joy this isn’t pleasure this is noise Outro when the music stops I’m still moving when the joy ends I’m still bruised no party no silence just pressure learning my name