If it is not safe to feel it the body does not feel it If it is not safe to know it the brain files it under later ALARM First comes alarm the sky goes black inside the skin Threat enters the room and the nervous system pulls the curtain in We experience only what feels survivable only what the body can hold The rest waits outside awareness raw and bright and old Not weakness not drama not failure in disguise Just the survival brain saying keep life alive Protection moves faster than meaning alarm moves faster than thought The body does not process everything when safety has not been bought It is over I am safe now Let the old alarm come down What was trapped can move somehow It is over I am safe now From shock to release from shame to repair from I could not to I am here It is over I am safe now The body can learn from here PROTECTIVE DISCONNECT Then protective disconnect keeps the body on alert Numb shock dissociation distraction doing work Sensation image behavior affect and meaning stay outside Not because they are false but because too much truth arrived I cannot believe it I could not cope if I believed it It could not happen It is not real That is not me The brain says later with excellent manners and a clipboard full of thunder The body says no thank you I would rather not go under REVIEW Then comes review only when safety enters the room The experience returns in pieces from the locked up bloom Sensation image behavior affect and meaning start to speak Helpless guilt shame pity for self and other come walking in antique I am helpless I am going to die I cannot help them I cannot protect myself I am bad They are bad old verdicts on the shelf But responsibility finds its proper chair Validation opens the door The first shame release begins when blame belongs where it belongs once more I was helpless then but I am not helpless now I could not change it then but I can name it now What happened was real but it was not my crime The body was young and danger stole time RELEASE Then comes release escape protection fight and flight Survival circuits activate and finally find their right Panic fear rage disgust arrive with shoes on fire Not overreaction just trapped survival desire I am trapped I am not safe I cannot move I hate it Nobody will help me Imagine what was needed what you needed to do to have a different outcome when no option came through Run in the dream push through the air find the door that was never there Fight flee protect survive Let the frozen learning come alive It is over I am safe now Let the old alarm come down What was trapped can move somehow It is over I am safe now From shock to release from shame to repair from I could not to I am here It is over I am safe now The body can learn from here At the crest of the hill I can see the past below No longer trapped with perspective and objectivity I know The trauma belongs in the past not in my throat not in my chest not in every shadow cast Relief comes quietly not as a parade but as a breath the body forgot it made It is over It is in the past I am safe now COMPASSION WITH PROTECTION Then compassion with protection not a flimsy little bow The kind with boundaries wisdom and a spine that knows Compassion care acceptance for self and other too I can love you hate what you did and still belong to what is true They did not know any better They did not realize I deserve love and protection I wonder what happened to them without abandoning my eyes The second shame release arrives when compassion takes the floor Not excusing not forgetting just not living there anymore RELEARN REPAIR Then relearn and repair choices for the future day What can I do to protect myself What should have happened another way Seeking curious spark of insight knowledge finding form Imaginal repair getting what was needed the way it was needed inside the storm Grief honors what was lost what could have been what should have been Gratitude widens the view without erasing where I have been Integration moves through similar stories present and future in one frame Objectivity releases shame and lets me carry my own name This is me This is my life I can learn I can choose I can protect what is mine It is over I am safe now Let the old alarm come down What was trapped can move somehow It is over I am safe now From grief to gratitude from repair to return from That is not me to I can learn It is over I am safe now The body can learn from here RETURN TO SAFETY Relaxed aware present clear Not numb not gone not living in fear Knowledge becomes available when the moment calls its name We can protect ourselves and others without living inside the flame Neither overreact nor underreact now The past is past I am here now It is over I am safe now
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