Rust In My Bones

[Intro] Every breath costs blood. Every step is a war I didn’t sign up for. [Verse 1] Wake up drowning inside my own skeleton, Right side screaming like someone lit the nerves on fire again. Sciatica drags a blade straight down my leg Stand? Walk? Nah. I’m locked inside this rusted cage. Gallbladder ticking like a rotten little timebomb, Every meal feels like rolling dice with a loaded gun. Growing pains stacked on chronic aches on chronic bullshit How the hell am I still carrying all of this? They ask why I’m limping, why I move slow, But they can’t see the battlefield under my skin — they’ll never know. So I laugh through agony, crack another joke, While my spine folds in on itself and nerves choke. [Pre Chorus] da vroom na ka doom na nemma This body ain’t a temple, it’s a cage made out of bone. ka tek na boom da narra And I’m serving life inside it, fighting on my own. [Chorus] I CAN’T WALK! I CAN’T BREATHE! My body turned against me like it wants to watch me bleed! INVISIBLE! TO YOUR EYES! You don’t see me drowning when I’m right there in plain sight! Every nerve’s on fire, every joint’s a knife This is what it costs just to stay alive. I’M STILL HERE! I’M STILL BREATHING! Even when my own damn flesh is the enemy I’m beating! [Instrumental Break] brah da doom na rah ma na ka loom, da ram! da ram! boh na da RAH! RAH! nah men ah! da vroom ta nah DOOM! keh ram! [Verse 2] Right side locked up like a rusted fucking chain, Can’t twist, can’t shift, can’t sneeze without pain. Weight pressing down like gravity wants revenge Every pound another nail I’m forced to carry again. “Just lose weight, just exercise, just try.” As if I’m not already clawing through the day just staying alive. You think I chose this? You think any of this is easy? Try walking in a body that betrays you daily. Gallbladder dying, doctors dragging their feet Still waiting, still hurting, still faking I’m upbeat. Crack a joke to stop myself from snapping in half If I don’t laugh at the pain, the pain gets the last laugh. [Pre Chorus] d’ga BOOM ta na doom, na rekka! Can’t outrun the body I’m imprisoned inside. GRRA ta DOOM! na tek ka NAM! Every single breath is another fucking fight. [Chorus] I CAN’T WALK! I CAN’T BREATHE! My body’s raising hell like it has a grudge against me! INVISIBLE! TO YOUR EYES! You don’t see me suffocating — but I swear I’m still alive! Every nerve’s on fire, every joint’s a knife This is the reality of fighting for life. I’M STILL HERE! I’M STILL BREATHING! Even when this broken shell is the monster I’m defeating! [Bridge] Day after day after day Pain never leaves, it just changes where it stays. Calculate every movement, every tiny step “Will I make it to the bathroom or regret the attempt?” No one sees the cost of existing in this skin. No one sees the daily war raging within. They see me standing, think I’m fine, think I’m okay They don’t see the parts of me dying quietly every day. [Breakdown] RIGHT SIDE DEAD! CAN’T FEEL MY LEG! SCIATICA’S A DEMON TAKING SPACE INSIDE MY HEAD! GALLBLADDER ROTTING! PAIN WON’T SHIFT! EVERY FUCKING MORNING STARTS WITH A CLIFF! GROWING PAINS! CHRONIC ACHE! HOW MUCH MORE CAN THIS BODY FUCKING TAKE?! TRAPPED INSIDE! CAN’T ESCAPE! THIS FLESH IS MY PRISON AND IT’S SEALING MY FATE! [Bridge 2] Some nights I wonder if the fight’s worth the breath, Dragging this wreck of a body through another near death. But I’m still here, still alive, still trying Even when every bone in me feels like it’s dying. Dark humour’s my armor, jokes are my shield If I don’t laugh at pain, pain runs the field. So I’ll joke about the failing parts tearing me apart Because broken or not, I’ve still got heart. [Final Chorus] I CAN’T WALK! I CAN’T BREATHE! My body wants me broken but I refuse to fucking leave! INVISIBLE! TO YOUR EYES! YOU DON’T SEE ME DROWNING — BUT I’M STILL ALIVE! Every nerve a wildfire, every joint a blade Life is a battle and I’m not afraid. I’M STILL HERE! I’M STILL BREATHING! EVEN WHEN MY BODY’S THE BEAST I’M BEATING! [Outro] noom na ra keh tah boom… namena… Still standing even when the body tries to fall. ta ra doom… keh nah… brah noma… Still fighting though the pain wants it all. BAH RA DOOM! NA DOOM! keh RAH ma! This flesh won’t define me, won’t chain my name. doom da rah BOOM tek nah vrena… I’m more than this pain… I’m the one who remains.