She was young enough for running, young enough for dust and sun, young enough to think a frightened hand could be recalled once done. There was shouting in the courtyard, there was stone beneath the air, Another child, her body falling With blood now in her hair The child awakened before dawn Like a candle in the dark But Kezia watched the courtyard stone where death had missed its mark Kezia’s mother held her through the night while all the lamps burned low. “She lives,” she said. “Be now at peace.” But Kezia whispered, “No.” For I have seen what fear can do before the mind can speak. I have seen a loving hand make mercy small and weak. So teach my breath to wait for me. Teach my blood to stay. If love can strike before it thinks, then love must learn the way. She trained before the morning bells, she trained when dusk was gone. She ran until the road went black, then rose and carried on. She took the bruise, she took the fall, the staff, the spear, the stone. She made a country of her will and she ruled there, all alone. No courtier saw the shaking hands, no singer saw the cost, the girl who feared her own bright strength and saw what could be lost. Kezia bent her rage to measured breath, She made her terror into law, until the blades with twice her skill stepped back from what they saw. For I have seen what fear can do before the mind can speak. I have seen a loving hand make mercy small and weak. So teach my breath to wait for me. Teach my blood to stay. If love can strike before it thinks, then love must learn the way. Then Eilis called across the sea, sister Akkadin replied. She crossed the waves for sacred oath, for alliance, law, and lives. He stood beside her through the dark, through fever, teeth, and sky. She gave him warmth with naked skin and would not let him die. But horror does not always end because the dawn has come. Sometimes the wound still answers back inside the strongest one. And Calian, with warrior’s eyes, looked past the thing he’d be, and begged the woman who loved him most to keep all others free. I had built my will from breath and bone, from bruises no one saw. I thought if I could master fear, my hands would answer law. But law was waiting in his eyes, and mercy had no plea. I did my duty, I killed my love, and it unmade half of me. For I have learned what duty asks when mercy cannot stay. I have held the living world and cut my heart away. So teach my breath to carry grief. Teach my blood to stand. If law can turn the hand to steel, then law must know the hand. The ship came home through two long moons, through salt and brooding air. Kezia lay inside the wooden dark with almost nothing living there. No victory song could reach her bed. No banner crossed that door. Eilis breathed because he died, But she could feel no more. But women met her at the shore with old and knowing eyes. They touched her wrist, they touched her face, and felt the hidden rise. Not joy; not yet. Not anything They could say to reassure But dawn had entered quietly where night had been so sure. A child beneath her broken heart. A light above the grave. A reason not to vanish after all that she had saved. And when they spoke the future’s name, Kezia wept but did not hide. The world had taken Calian, but dawn had stayed inside. Now maps lie open under lamps. Now every marker waits. Now riders kneel with lowered eyes beside the palace gates. Her daughter’s room has gone to dark. No message. No reply. Kidnapped, hidden, dead, or lost beneath the desert sky. Her heart would send ten thousand hands to tear apart the night. Her crown could turn a mother’s fear to empire, oath, and right. But stone remembers. Cabins know. The sea remembers too. And dawn, if dawn is lost to her, still taught her what is true. But I have been the fist before. I have been duty’s blade. I will not make my terror law. I will not be unmade. The crown is not a blade I draw, though every blade would rise. The crown is not the grief I hide behind my quiet eyes. So teach my breath to hold the line. Teach my blood to stay. love could burn the world for her, But love must light the way. Rika, daughter, dawn of every night, wherever you have strayed— I will not turn my fear to war. The crown is not a blade. The crown is not a blade. The crown is not a blade.