I Hate That I Loved You

I kept your hoodie on the chair Like that might make you care You left your key in the bowl I still look there when I'm low You said "always" You said "stay" Now your name tastes like rust On my tongue every day I gave you my last good piece You took it clean, then peace And I act like I'm fine But my chest still keeps your time I hate that I loved you I hate how it hurt I hate that I saved you Then got left in the dirt I hate that I loved you Made it look so true Now every song you ruined Still pulls me back to you I hate that I loved you I hate that I loved you You broke me in two I hate that I loved you I hate that I loved you Still feel what you do Say it like a prayer I hate that I loved you Your name in my phone lit up Like trouble in a cup I should've let it ring But I picked that pain back up Now I dodge your little smile On the edge of every crowd You moved on with your life I still hear you when it's loud Tell me how you sleep so calm While I replay it all Every "come here" turned "go" Every promise hit the wall And I know I should let go But some nights I don't I keep trying to be strong Then I fold when I'm alone I hate that I loved you I hate how it hurt I hate that I saved you Then got left in the dirt I hate that I loved you Made it look so true Now every song you ruined Still pulls me back to you I hate that I loved you I hate that I loved you You broke me in two I hate that I loved you I hate that I loved you Still feel what you do Say it like a prayer I hate that I loved you I tried to wash your shadow off But it stays in the seams I tried to burn the letters down Still you live in my dreams Maybe I miss the version That never learned to leave Maybe I miss the lie of us More than I miss me I hate that I loved you I hate that I loved you You broke me in two I hate that I loved you I hate that I loved you Still feel what you do Say it like a prayer I hate that I loved you Yeah, I hate that I loved you I hate that I loved you But I did, and it's true