PUSH AND PULL

[Verse 1] I get close, then I pull away Like love’s a fire I can’t contain The second it starts to feel too real I shut it down before it stays You’d ask me why I disappear I’d say I just need space But space was just a safer word For fear I couldn’t face [Pre-Chorus] I built a life inside my head Where leaving meant control If I walked out before you could At least I’d keep my soul I wasn’t trying to break your heart I was trying not to lose mine But running from what scares you most Leaves everything behind ⸻ [Chorus] Why did I push when you reached out to pull Into your heart, but mine was too full Why did I run when I let down my walls Blamed it on wiring, blamed it on faults I wasn’t heartless, I was scared of the fall I never learned how to stay through it all I never learned how to stay Through it all ⸻ [Verse 2] I learned young how to guard my chest How silence keeps you safe If no one gets too close to you They can’t just walk away So when you reached with open hands It felt like stepping off a ledge I’d rather sabotage the love Than hang there on the edge [Pre-Chorus] I used to call it chemistry Or say I’m “just like this” But patterns aren’t identity They’re habits we resist You saw the good inside of me Before I knew it too And that scared me more than losing you ‘Cause I believed it wasn’t true ⸻ [Bridge — Soft, Stripped] I know it hurt I know you tried You stood there while I chose my pride I don’t go ghost because I don’t care I go silent when I’m scared I’m tired Of disappearing ⸻ [Final Chorus — Slight Lift, Harmonies] Why did I push when you reached out to pull Into your heart, but mine was too full Why did I run when I let down my walls Blamed it on wiring, blamed it on faults I wasn’t heartless, I was scared of the fall But I’m learning how to stay through it all I’m learning how to stay Through it all