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Carry the Lantern

[singer A] [Intro | Whispered] Another room… another crowd… Another war inside my fucking head… Why can’t I just… breathe? [verse A] I step through the doorway, heartbeat hittin’ like a freight train, Every pair of eyes feels like they’re carving up my damn name. Walls closing in, every voice becomes a siren, Smile on my face while my nervous system’s firing. Hands start shaking, vision starts fading, Brain screaming, “Run!” while my body hesitating. I’m trapped in a cage that nobody else can see, Tell me why the hell my own mind keeps hunting me? It’s just a grocery store… it’s just a fucking crowd… So why’s my heartbeat louder than the people talking loud? Every breath gets shorter, every step feels wrong, I’ve been fighting this damn battle for so fucking long. [transition] [singer B] Intro | Whispered Daddy... Come here... I know... I felt it too. [verse B] Before your hands begin to shake, Before your heartbeat floods the room, My soul has already heard the echo Rolling underneath your wounds. The exits start calling your name, The walls grow closer in your eyes. My own chest tightens with the silence, Like thunder gathering inside. People only see the moment... I feel the storm. [transition] [singer A] [Pre-Chorus | Clean] When will it stop? When will I breathe? When will this fear… Finally release me? [Chorus | SCREAM] WHEN WILL THE PANIC LET ME FUCKING GO?! WHY’S MY MIND THE BIGGEST ENEMY I KNOW?! I’M GASPING FOR AIR IN A ROOM FULL OF LIGHT, BUT I’M FIGHTING SHADOWS NO ONE ELSE CAN FIND! I’M NOT A COWARD! I’M NOT WEAK! I’M JUST TRYING TO BREATHE! CAN SOMEBODY TELL ME… WHEN THIS FEAR STOPS CONQUERING ME?! [transition] [singer B] Pre-Chorus We're both made of open hearts. We were never built to walk untouched. Sometimes the world feels too loud... So let's be quiet... Together. Chorus When your breathing starts to falter, I'll breathe beside you. When my spirit starts to fracture, You'll steady mine too. We're not saving one another... We're reminding each other That fear doesn't get the final word. Some days you'll carry the lantern. Some days I will. But we'll never let The light... Go out. [melodic transition] [singer A] [Breakdown | Screamed] I’M DONE! LETTING! THIS! MONSTER! NAME! MY! LIFE! YOU DON’T OWN MY FUTURE! YOU DON’T OWN MY SOUL! YOU MAY SHAKE MY BONES… BUT YOU’LL NEVER TAKE CONTROL! [Bridge | Clean to Scream] Maybe healing isn’t waking up one day without fear… Maybe it’s taking one more step… Even while it’s standing here… So I’ll keep breathing… Even when my lungs forget how. I’ll keep walking… Even when my knees give out. I’ll keep fighting… UNTIL MY HEART REMEMBERS… I WAS NEVER CREATED… TO LIVE INSIDE THIS PRISON! [final chorus A] I WON’T LET THE PANIC WRITE MY EPITAPH! I’M MORE THAN EVERY BROKEN FUCKING PHOTOGRAPH! THIS FEAR MAY KNOCK ME DOWN A THOUSAND TIMES… BUT IT WON’T STEAL THE REST OF MY LIFE! I’M STILL HERE! I’M STILL BREATHING! I’M STILL STANDING! I’M STILL SCREAMING! ONE DAY THIS FEAR WON’T RULE MY NAME! UNTIL THAT DAY… I’LL KEEP FUCKING BREATHING. [singer B] Final Chorus Keep breathing... I'll breathe with you. Keep walking... I'll match your pace. And when my world starts trembling... I know you'll do the same for me. We'll borrow courage Back and forth As many times as life asks us to. Because love was never about One person carrying the other. It was always about Two souls... Choosing... Again and again... To carry the lantern Until the other can see the path. [Outro | Whispered] Daddy... We're both still learning... But we're learning together. Forever and always... To Valhalla and beyond.