Conversations With the Ceiling

2:17… Can’t sleep again Staring at the cracks in the paint overhead Whole day felt loud, now my thoughts instead Phone face down, but my mind still scrollin’ Every “I’m fine” I said feel stolen Dreams on pause but the rent still due Wide awake thinking what I didn’t do Night got questions I don’t outrun Dark don’t lie when the day’s done I’ve been having conversations with the ceiling Telling all my secrets to the silence I’m feeling If I make it through the night, I’ll be alright Yeah, I’m just trying to breathe till the morning light Missed calls from people who don’t really hear Smile so practiced it disappear Counting old wins like they happened today Wonder how long hope likes to stay Everyone strong when the sun’s in view Different story when it’s just you Clock don’t stop, it just stares Like it knows I’m unprepared I’ve been having conversations with the ceiling Telling all my secrets to the silence I’m feeling If I make it through the night, I’ll be alright Yeah, I’m just trying to breathe till the morning light Maybe healing isn’t loud or fast Maybe it’s surviving another past Minute by minute, holding ground Learning peace don’t make a sound Breathe in… breathe out… I’ve been having conversations with the ceiling Learning how to sit with every feeling If I make it through the night, I’ll be alright Yeah, I’m still here when the morning arrives 2:18… Still awake—but I’m here