I was thirteen, you were 15 Skies we painted bright and clean Walked the lanes till dark came round Every secret, safe and sound You’d sing off-key, I’d play along Thought nothing ever could go wrong Then I messed up, made my choice Clammed my mouth and lost my voice Didn’t know how to say I’m wrong Just let the silence stretch too long Now the lines go dead, the messages stay still I drifted out beyond your hill You’re thirteen still in my memory I’m thirteen, carrying what I did to thee Got lost in space between our names And vanished from your frame Shared our jokes beneath the tree Promised you I’d always be There to catch you if you fall Now I can’t answer when you call Buried guilt beneath my chest Left you guessing with the rest Couldn’t face what I had done Cut the thread before it spun Disappeared without a word Left your questions never heard Now the lines go dead, the messages stay still I drifted out beyond your hill You’re fifteen still in my memory I’m thirteen carrying what I did to thee Got lost in space between our names And vanished from your frame If I could turn back time today I’d find the words I couldn’t say Tell you plainly: it was me Not anything you’d ever be But doors I closed are hard to find Left us far, far behind Fifteen boy, thirteen girl Lost inside my own dark whirl Contact gone, all quiet now Just “I’m so sorry” – that’s my vow
