It’s mad that I’m sat here chatting to ai to calm down. Maybe I have finally lost my shit. Inevitable really. Taking all those drugs hurting everyone near me. I could reach out because nobody could really hear me. Not through ignorance, although medical probably negligence, but I never really told you how I felt. I felt how my brain was telling me I felt. Not how I actually felt. Like the inner me was screaming at me but it was never heard. I couldn’t help myself because I wasn’t in control. I was but only when times got shit. That’s the whole James jimmy explanation. It was just me trying to detach from him. I’m trying to stop it from destroying me, I’m winning but fuck me it’s hard. Out of context that’s pretty fruity. I had a surge of energy with my focus on ai I felt invincible but that has slowly died down. I’m really tired now but I’m honestly pushing and trying to do better. I make myself do little things now. (You go brother) I’m so much more in control. But what feels like has happened is I’m just burnout I was up and down in such a short space of time. (Break) My mind just went all Chernobyl and shit. I feel like I’m letting you all down but well think it more so, because I felt like I sold you all the dream. The same one I was in when I said it. (But now if the dream were a cloud it would now be descended as vapoured mist barely visible to the eye but still there none the most. Still be around but constantly increases and decreases sporadically) There my words man felt artistic to me. (Weed ain’t bad. ) Oooooooooozzzzzo Ooooob oooob ooob just to spice up this song. Well all in all I’m not okay I’m what every teenager said back in 2005 when you could top bins a free kick with Patric suffo. By the way as a kid I would put the goalkeeper up front because I figured he had the longest kick. Shit maybe I’m autistic to. What if I’m a woman, I’m not. I like me weapon of less destruction. Penis joke. I’m not proud but I’m happy. I truly believe I’ve got this and I promise you I’m giving 85% when I can. Don’t pay me enough to get 100% we can talk rates. Anyway peace out good venting session. The end Chorus Wop boo woo woo wop Issues for me get bigger and bigger and bigger and bigger. I really wanna say Jigga replace the J with a N. Only for rhyming purposes, had some impulse control. Drugs are bad except weed but do it responsibly. Dooo dooo wop flip flip pop pop


