[Intro — soft piano, distant heartbeat kick] I don’t know if I’m tired Or if I’m running from the fight I don’t know if I’m resting Or disappearing from my life [Verse 1 — beat enters softly] I was raised to keep moving With a fever in my bones Smiling through the bruises Learning silence felt like home Nobody asked what hurt me Nobody checked my chest So I became a soldier Who never learned to rest Now I’m standing in the middle Of my body and my brain Trying to hear the difference Between healing and escape [Pre-Chorus — drums pull back] Is this laziness talking? Or a warning in my skin? Am I giving up again Or finally listening? [Verse 2 — deeper bass, soft claps] There were years I didn’t notice I had needs beneath the noise I confused being broken With being strong by choice I ignored the little signals The shaking and the tears I called myself dramatic For what I carried all these years But my body’s been a witness To every war I survived It wasn’t trying to stop me It was keeping me alive [Pre-Chorus — layered harmonies] So I’m asking better questions With my hand against my chest Do I need to keep on walking Or do I need to rest? [Chorus — bigger, emotional lift] I’m learning my body again One breath, one step, one day I pushed through hell for so damn long I forgot I had a say I’m learning my body again Trying not to call it shame When I need to lay down softly Instead of running through the pain Oh, I gave up on me so quietly I didn’t even see it begin Now I’m reaching for the girl I lost And learning my body again [Bridge — beat drops to heartbeat + piano] I’m not weak for needing silence I’m not bad for needing time I’m not lazy when my spirit Has been fighting for its life There’s a voice inside me trembling But she’s finally speaking clear She says, “Please don’t leave me again I’ve been waiting for you here” [Final Chorus — full beat, choir-like backing vocals] I’m learning my body again One breath, one step, one day I’m not the child they overlooked I’m allowed to feel my way I’m learning my body again With grace I never knew If I need rest, I’ll honor it If I can rise, I’ll move Oh, I gave up on me so quietly But I’m coming home within God, I’m reaching for the life I lost And learning my body again [Outro — soft piano, heartbeat fades] I don’t have to push through everything To prove that I can live I’m learning how to love myself By listening within
