I’m planning on going to see my bestfriend Idk how ima do it But if I get this 10k that’s the last sign I need Istg I’ll go no matter what All I need to see is if she loves me or not I don’t need sex I’ve seen prettier women with bigger tiddies who I at least was able to talk to and if anything they at least like my personality and I’ve flirted with and etc If she rejects me platonically. Like in a bestfriend type of way. Then I’m blocking her or cutting her off. If I can’t do that. Then I just won’t respond to her anymore If I can’t do that then I’m going to be dry and distant and unemotional and not charismatic and dry and etc And I don’t want to be that way to her. So it’s better things end on a good note if they end It’s better that she rejects me than I reject her If she wants only sex Ima be heart broken But I’m finally ready to accept all outcomes I’m just trying to see if anyone actually loves me Before I give up on looking/finding/caring about love I can always come back to where I am now And I can fuck a lot of women here tbh Just need more money and to get my life together and that’s about it. Because getting your life together. Just means have the financial means to do alot of things. Aka having money. If she just wants to be platonic friends. And doesn’t want sex at all. Even though for the past 3 years she said we could. And even though I’ve already seen her naked and she’s seen me naked. And we’ve already talked sexual to each other and etc I’ll be completely happy I can fuck other women I just need to see if she loves me. And I just want to experience true love. I’ll cherish the experience and then from that experience I’ll have the catharsis/closure I need And then I can start living like a man And embrace toxic masculinity But until then I’m searching for a way to heal my broken heart (damn. Bro down bad) How? I’m not doing this to fuck her I could’ve already did that I’m 98% sure she loves me atp It might be too late to fuck her or it might not be But that’s perfect I only want love and to love and be loved right now
