Have you ever felt like you did something wrong, Not because someone said so, but you felt it, after the moment. Sometimes I can’t just hold it on the inside, Slowly burning, making me want to fight, I lose sight, of what’s right and who I want to be. Internals screaming let it out, but with doubt. not voices in my head, not the devil on my back, Something deeper, something real, something I’m supposed to be, but can it be. It still feels like it’s growing, not something I want to show, Feels like this can’t just be me, people must put on a show. keep it locked in a cage, keep it pushed down tight, Cause the way that it makes me feel, I’ve already lost sight. Am I filling with rage, should I just turn the page, I can’t hear a single thought, why can’t I get down from the stage. But now it’s out, And the feelings fade Can’t turn back this clock of mine, Feels like I’ve played this part a thousand times, Will it-ev-er be-the-same, Or am I forever left with the shame. Look out into the night, wish I could sleep tight, Something is clawing at me, this feeling isn’t right. Afraid to say it in my head, fraud to say it from my heart, Broken and shattered, my emotions torn apart. I’m mentally down on my knees, feel like screaming help me please. Can’t believe that I blurted out words, so deceitful it lies, Am I trying to deny, what was left of my pride, is there nowhere left to hide. But it’s just me, not who I am, but where I am. damaged on the inside. Can’t turn back this clock of mine, Feels like I’ve played this part a thousand times, Will it-ev-er be-the-same, Or am I forever left with the shame. Was I really mad, Did it really get to me, Did I let it, Do I regret it, Now that I’ve gone and said what I’ve said, Is it right that I get to lay down and rest my head, The peace felt right it felt done, But I didn’t know the feelings had just begun, Why did it feel so strong, Why does it now feel wrong. Can’t turn back this clock of mine, Feels like I’ve played this part a thousand times, Will it-ev-er be-the-same, Or am I forever left with the shame. Can I ever start to feel good again, can I turn this it to something that makes me grow.
