[VERSE 1 — ~88 BPM — detuned guitar + tape hiss, NO drums — vocal: half-spoken, close-mic'd, flat 3am affect, stay inside three notes] little words aloud roaming through my brain slipping through the cracks and confidence the same i don't tell them no I don't know where to go life is ocean and I can't swim life is a game I can not win [CHORUS A — "terrible" mantra — drums stumble in, lo-fi, slightly behind the beat — vocal: chanted, rising desperation — the "ohhhh / I knooooowwww" lines are a rising wail, voice breaks at the top, do not smooth] and i know I am terrible i know ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I knooooowwww I know I am terrible and i know I am terrible i know ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I knooooowwww I know I am terrible and i know I am terrible i know ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I knooooowwww I know I am terrible [VERSE 2 — strip back: guitar + tape hiss, drums out — vocal: half-spoken, darker than verse 1] slip into the black right under my skin i can feel it take me back to when I used to begin and while I am there staring at my past I look in my eyes the dream that didn't last [CHORUS B — "kind" mantra — same bed as Chorus A but drums softer — vocal: chanted, fragile, almost disbelieving] I know I am kind i know ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I knooooowwww I know I am kind I know I am kind i know ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I knooooowwww I know I am kind [BRIDGE — everything breaks: glitch, dropouts, drums collapse mid-bar — vocal: shouted, furious, unhinged — wrong notes welcome, let it fall apart] and i broke it and i broke it and i broke it it's gone it's fuckin broken it's fuckin broken i am fuckin done [DAWN — sparse: single guitar notes, underwater low-end recedes — vocal: quiet, waking up, barely sung] and when the dawn begins to come and the dark begins to rise i can see the deep I can see my eyes [FINAL — "alive" — full band returns — vocal: the wail becomes a victory cry — "im alive" chant starts broken, builds to defiant — no fade-out, build to the end] oh I am aaaaAAAAAaaAAAALLIIIIIIIVE oh IahhhhhIIoohhh IIahhhh am alive im alive im alive im alive im alive oh Iah i know ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I knooooowwww I know I am terrible I know I am kind i know ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I knooooowwww im alive im alive im alive im alive im alive im alive im alive im alive oh Iah i know ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I knooooowwww I know I am terrible I know I am kind i know ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I knooooowwww im alive im alive im alive im alive
