[Intro — whisper, distant reverb] Clock glowin’ blue in the dark, I don’t breathe right Whole house quiet but my head in a street fight Fan sound turn to a helicopter overhead I ain’t in my bed… I’m somewhere else instead [Hook] 3AM, I’m awake again Heart beat louder than the rain again Door still locked but I check it ten Try to sleep… but I wake again Eyes wide open, mind won’t bend I know I’m safe but my nerves pretend Sunrise only time it ends 4:05… I’m alive again [Verse 1] I’m 32 but my body don’t know Every little sound make adrenaline go Ice in my veins, hands numb, cold Phone light on like a flare I hold I count exits everywhere I stand Sit facing doors in a restaurant plan Friends think I’m weird how I scan a room I ain’t looking at them — I’m measuring doom Hallway creak and my chest get tight Not scared… just ready to fight I ain’t angry, I’m braced for pain Like my past still booked on the next train I sleep but I don’t really rest My mind stay armored under my chest Dreams ain’t dreams, they’re reruns live I wake up sweating just to survive [Hook] 3AM, I’m awake again Heart beat louder than the rain again Door still locked but I check it ten Try to sleep… but I wake again Eyes wide open, mind won’t bend I know I’m safe but my nerves pretend Sunrise only time it ends 4:05… I’m alive again [Verse 2] I hate loud pops on the 4th of July Everyone cheers — I’m ready to dive Fireworks bloom, people smiling bright I’m mapping cover in the parking lot light I keep a jacket near the bed each night Shoes by the door, keys in sight Water bottle filled and a flashlight charged I don’t call it fear… I call it guard My girl say, “You here?” I nod and lie ‘Cause half of me still somewhere I can’t describe I hear footsteps when nobody there Smell smoke in a clean, cold air Doc said brain stuck stuck in survive Like the body never learned how to arrive I ain’t broken, just wired to warn My calm was something I was never born I ain’t tough, man… I’m tired instead War follows home inside your head I don’t want hero, medals, respect I just want sleep without the threat [Bridge — echoing, softer] Breathing slow… count four, hold two Ground myself: wall, floor, blanket, room I say my age and today’s date Tell my body “you ain’t there, you safe” Night don’t hurt me — memory do The past ain’t gone, it just leaks through Morning light through the blinds begins And the shaking in my hands thins [Final Hook — layered vocals] 3AM, I’m awake again Heart beat louder than the rain again Door still locked but I check it ten Try to sleep… but I wake again Eyes wide open, mind won’t bend I know I’m safe but my nerves pretend Sunrise only time it ends 4:05… I’m alive again [Outro — fading pads] Coffee brewing, sky turn gray Another night I fought away People wake to start their day… I just survived mine.
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