[Hook] After all of this time After every goodbye I just wanna know what happy feels like 'Cause I've been wasting my time Always chasing a high I just wanna know what happy feels like [Verse] I thought that money and trust could buy security Two things that only enable the thing that's hurting me Two things that only enable the insecurities And that's the only thing I feel, so I still [Bridge] Take a pill every day Try not to think about it Wish all my problems away Try not to think about it But I don't think I can change When all I think about is what I used to feel like I just wanna feel right [Verse] God granted us serenity, I'm in a search for better remedies Tryna find some light to conquer this dark energy Devil on my shoulder, he tryna' spark chemistry It's an art form how I've lasted Through programmin' that hit the masses, good and evil been clashin' I rose from the ashes, walked the devil's passage My pops shot himself in the crib, that shit was tragic Some how I made it to cribs in Calabasas Calculated my risks, got sticks under the mattress The money don't love you, she's just an actress Without the money, I've been stabbed straight through the back From brother's part of my pack The stress alone'll give you two heart attacks And that's facts Dark clouds cover the future like cataracts The pain was such a common occurrence that I'd adapt Until I made a change to the map You gotta take responsibility for what you attract Track marks, cover arms and people I warn The demons lookin' in my face like "yeah, you been warned" So much needed reform, dad, I weathered the storm Thank God I found some light through it, I've been reborn And I relish it, even though sometimes I'm devilish At being good and bad, I'm a specialist And running from the truth is a theme that is overly relevant The devil in the room is the elephant [Hook] After all of this time After every goodbye I just wanna know what happy feels like 'Cause I've been wasting my time Always chasing a high I just wanna know what happy feels like
