Dad never calls So when he did I knew something wasn’t right Everything okay I hear him say No it’s not Your brother’s gone and done something stupid He can’t take back He left the world today Took himself and went away I always thought I’d feel it If you were no longer here But I feel the same as always No indication you just disappeared Thought I’d have a warning Or be psychically linked That somehow I’d stop you Make you pause and think Never thought one day You would just be gone Feels like I got a pain in my heart And a rock in my chest And my eyes won’t stop watering I don’t even get to say goodbye Not when you were alive So now I’ll try Even if I’m speaking to air I think you can still hear me Heard you made plans And promises to so many people Were you lying Just really making counter plans Tired of living in the addicted haze Tired of struggling in the world Dipped out just like that I used to be angry with you Shouted to the air Why would you do this Why would you go this way I miss your laugh Your jokes Even the smell Of the cigarettes you smoke The gleam in your eye When you are scheming I miss talking about stuff so deep or weird If someone heard They’d wonder if we were ever sane But mostly I just miss You being here We talked just the other day About going into business You moving out this way I always thought I’d feel it If you were no longer here But I feel the same as always No indication you just disappeared Feels like I got a pain in my heart And a rock in my chest And my eyes won’t stop watering I don’t even get to say goodbye Not when you were alive So now I’ll try Even if I’m speaking to air I think you can still hear me But mostly I just miss You being here
