[Intro – talking / half-sung] For thirty years I tried to be good Smile right, talk right, act how I should Be polite, be calm, be helpful, be fair Meanwhile they laughing like I ain’t there One year ago, I was fading out Flatline thoughts, couldn’t hear my sound So close to gone, I felt death breathe Cold hands on me, counting heartbeats Then I flip one switch and the whole room shifts Like what the hell is this? --- [Verse 1 – trade-off] I was like “I’ll train you whenever bro” “Yeah you’re good, I got you, I can help you grow” Years of weight I couldn’t name Living perfect, scared of change Held my breath, hid all the light Afraid to lose what felt “right” Got laughed at, talked over, made small, played soft Then I said “Nope.” and the mask came off Then everything I feared came true And somehow I survived it too What I protected kept me numb What destroyed me made me one Beat you, told you you suck Now suddenly I’m the one you wanna f*** with You wanna hang out? Now you wanna talk? Now you respect me? Now you don’t mock? WTF is this game? --- [Pre-Chorus – call and response] False nice didn’t work True nice didn’t land False mean felt weird But truth mean? They clapped their hands They say pain breaks you down But it broke me open I wasn’t saved, I was found By the truth I was avoiding So what’s the variable? What changed? Was it the words Or the fact I stopped playing? --- [Chorus – merged] Nice didn’t work So I stopped caring Stopped smoothing Stopped over-sharing I died and I woke up free Yeah, I lost who I used to be This body’s cracked, but my soul’s alive They call it pain, I call it my second life Now I say what I think And I don’t explain And somehow that’s when They scream my name I wouldn’t trade this truth for peace Wouldn’t rewind what it did to me I broke apart just to finally see This wasn’t the end — it was a rebirth in me Is it mean, or is it free? Did I grow up or just drop the leash? --- [Verse 2 – story flip] With girls it was awkward “Be sweet” “Be safe” Try to be good Don’t rock the place They ghost me. Cold. Weird vibe. Then I say what I want No filter. No bribe. Suddenly interested. Suddenly fun Same mouth. Same lungs. So don’t tell me “Bad boys win” It’s not that simple, it’s deeper than sin It’s outcome independence, no validation chase When I stopped needing, I took up space Now I don’t beg for yesterday I don’t run from the pain What tried to take my life Gave it back in flames --- [Bridge – introspective build] After the staples, after the scars After I stared at hospital stars I realized something twisted and clean: Being “good” ain’t the same as being seen I was lying when I was nice Not fully, not twice Just enough to smooth the room But when I cut, it came with boom If this is broken, let it stay I don’t need perfect anyway I needed scars to feel okay I needed death to feel awake --- [Breakdown – punchy] If I say “you’re overweight” That’s clinical. Cold. If I say “you’re a fat f***” They laugh Cause it’s bold. Is that messed up? Maybe. Is it tension? Yes. But the second I stop caring They lean in, not less. So what is it? Mean? Or conviction? Did I drop kindness Or drop addiction? --- [Final Chorus – big mash] Nice didn’t work So I killed the mask Now I speak first Don’t ask I died and I woke up real For the first time, I can feel If this is hell, then let it burn I found myself where there’s no return You want my time? Earn it. You want my respect? Burn it. I’m not mean to be loved I’m mean cause I’m done Playing the saint For anyone I don’t want back what I used to be I don’t want safe, I want honestly This was the day that rescued me The day I lived — the day I rebirthed me Life’s short, heart stopped once I’m not wasting breath on being the punch If peace is quiet and charge is loud I’m both right now And I’m proud [Outro – spoken] This wasn’t the worst day of my life This was the one that gave it back
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