People want a story with gold thrones Bright lights Something far away But when I died There was nothing flashy Just silence And in that silence I found myself I wasn’t rescued I remembered Heal or die Those were the terms And I chose life They want gold thrones Bright lights, choirs in the sky They want the story loud enough To distract from what’s inside But when I died There were no crowns for me Just silence opening gently So I could finally see I was grateful for the pain The betrayals, the fall Being abandoned completely No one left to call Because stripped of every witness Every role I tried to play I met the truth that never left me I met myself that day I thought healing lived in answers In plants, in prayers, in hands But everything I touched was colored By what I hadn’t yet unmanned Death saved my life It showed me who I am When there was no one coming I finally learned to stand Heal or die There was no disguise I didn’t know my strength Until I had no choice but rise I learned disease has roots Buried deep in memory And real healers heal themselves Before they touch the remedy I saw the programs playing In them..... and also me And forgave us all at once For what we couldn’t yet unsee God wasn’t separate God wasn’t far Truth was breathing quietly Exactly where I are Not above me Not beyond But woven through each thing A thread inside the everything And I was not the king I was a piece And that was grace I was left for dead And that was the gift Because I stopped asking permission To feel what I always felt My intuition was never wrong Even when I prayed it was I learned to listen Plan accordingly And walk before the storm could come Death saved my life And I’m grateful now For every door that slammed shut That taught me how Heal or die That was the truth And I stand here living Because I chose me through You never know your strength Until you have no choice And I didn’t find my power Until I found my voice Heal or die Heal or die I chose life I chose truth I chose me Heal or die Heal or die I am still here I am still here and here's a secret....there is no death...
