NUMB

I wish I was numb, Wish I couldn't feel a thing All I feel is sorrow, misery and pain I think of you every moment without refrain Wonder how often I'm actually on your brain I wish I was numb so I didn't have to cry All these tears with you, as we ask each other why Too in love to give up, ready to give it another try Wish I wasn't the only one who's lonely wishing I would die I wish I was numb, I'd treat you like a whore, Use you when I want to cuz you're always wanting more I'm scared this will somehow hurt me, scar me to the core once I find out what the future has in store I wish I was numb So my feelings didn't matter I wouldn't hyperfocus, all my thoughts could scatter I'd be free to be as crazy as the mad hatter It wouldn't hurt when my friends whisper, gossip or chatter I wish I was numb, So maybe somehow I could smile Pretending that it's ok even for just a while, I wouldn't have to hide my face behind a mask of gile always being judged by my peers, like a witch at a witch trial I wish I was numb, So I wouldn't need your sympathy and maybe then you would see There's no you, no me, only we. And we, were simply r meant to be Sometimes It feels like we are like we were Think of you still with him and the feelings start to blur You say you show me that you love me, and honestly I concur Just wish I was the only one that can make you purr Yeah my vision is blurry, can't quite see This metamorphosis happening to me it took some time, but I'm finally numb. I can't feel true emotion, how far I have come. From my suicidal, infantile, child shaking fist at heaven pounding the drum, I m fine in the shadows, where a demon I've become, Used to stare at your face, used to read your eyes Feel the love from your embrace, and warmth from between your thighs Maybe it was the Leo's thrill of the chase Blinded by love , only now do I realize It's not just sex, or just a phase It's been just a disguise, I thought that I was healing, now I've lost all feeling Now I'm all alone, with thoughts so revealing, there's no concealing Give me that stare, so I can see inside your mind Show me that you care, show me that your mine All mine, Wish I was numb so you couldn't see me crying, Maybe it was the Leo's thrill of the chase Blinded by love , only now do I realize It's not just sex, or just a phase It's been just a disguise, I thought that I was healing, now I've lost all feeling Now I'm all alone, with thoughts so revealing, there's no concealing Give me that stare, so I can see inside your mind Show me that you care, show me that your mine All mine, Wish I was numb so you couldn't see me crying, when you tell me won't cum, I wish I was numb, thought you were the one, I just wish I was numb [end] Give me that stare, so I can see inside your mind Show me that you care, show me that your mine All mine, Wish I was numb so you couldn't see me crying, Maybe it was the Leo's thrill of the chase Blinded by love , only now do I realize It's not just sex, or just a phase It's been just a disguise, I thought that I was healing, now I've lost all feeling Now I'm all alone, with thoughts so revealing, there's no concealing Give me that stare, so I can see inside your mind Show me that you care, show me that your mine All mine, Wish I was numb so you couldn't see me crying, when you tell me you won't cum, I wish I was numb, thought you were the one, I just wish i was numb, i wish i was numb