[Intro] I’ve been drifting far from who I was (yeah… mmm) Lost myself somewhere under the sun (ohh…) Some days I just… wanted to disappear (disappear…) [Chorus] I wanted to disappear but I stayed too long (too long) Tried to find myself in a party song (song) Smiled through the pain just to feel alright Fake highs chasing me every night (every night) Didn’t want attention, didn’t want to be here Just wanted the world to forget I was near (near…) [Verse 1] I kept walking down the shore with a blank expression (expression) Salt in the air didn’t clean the tension Waves hit soft but my heart hit harder Sunset fading, thoughts getting darker Crowds all laughing but I felt unseen (unseen) Music hitting loud but I stayed between Every beat felt like it missed my chest Every smile felt like I failed the test Tried dancing off everything I felt inside But the rhythm couldn’t save what I tried to hide Drinks in my hand didn’t numb that ache Even paradise couldn’t stop heartbreak (heartbreak) Palm trees swaying like they felt my fear Held every tear like it might appear Tried to breathe deep, tried to stay clear But pain don’t leave just because you’re here Sunset glow didn’t lift my mood Didn’t matter if the view was good (good) Tropical nights couldn’t change this year ’Cause truth is… I wanted to disappear (disappear…) [Pre Chorus] I kept walking through places meant to heal (to heal) But the light outside didn’t change what’s real (what’s real) I kept chasing highs that would fade too fast (too fast) I kept holding on to a broken past (the past) Thought the beach could wash away my pain Thought warm nights could reset my brain But no matter where I ran or steered Deep down… I wanted to disappear (disappear) [Chorus] I wanted to disappear but I stayed too long (too long) Tried to find myself in a party song (song) Smiled through the pain just to feel alright Fake highs chasing me every night (night) Didn’t want attention, didn’t want to be here Just wanted the world to forget I was near (near…) [Interlude – tropical switch-up, chopped vocals, soft reverb] “disappear… disappear… did you hear me…?” “gone… gone…” [Verse 2] I woke up staring at the ceiling light Realized running never made things right Every fear I carried followed me home Doesn’t matter where you go, you’re never alone (never alone) I tried changing cities, tried changing scenes But pain stays stuck in the space between You can’t escape what you never address You just bury it deep until it feels like stress I learned healing don’t come from sun or sea It starts with the things I ran from in me (in me) Didn’t want to fade, didn’t want to disappear I just wanted a life that didn’t feel like fear (fear…) [Final Chorus] I wanted to disappear but I’m still right here (right here) Trying to breathe through another year (year) Didn’t need escape, I needed repair Didn’t need distance, I needed care (care) Maybe I stayed because I needed to hear I don’t need to disappear… I need to be here (be here)
