Self Hate Crimes

As every day passes I've been thinkin a lot of cold feelins, soul diggin. End up kickin them rocks. What's my cause? Cuz it feels like I've been sent here to rot. Daps to my old self, I miss him a lot. Ima keep it up It's not my mission to stop. Til' one day I fade away and I'm inches from God. Look him in the face, give him a nod. So he understands I still got some sins to wash. And I... don't got alotta time... I am not defined... by the mistakes I've made I shouldn't hate myself, I'm tryin... And I... got some mountains to climb... I am not surprised... from all the pain that I've caused.. I should deserve to die... Self...Hate...Crimes... I smoke alittle somethin when I'm feelin the stress. Feelin chilly with the philly I'm not feelin the best. Still in my head, and on the outside I've been seeming possessed. Soul grindin, I'm fullfilling my debts. It's been a rocky road and I'm still on the fence. If there's a higher power, you should lend me some strength. I know it doesn't show but let the healing commence. And let me see it all through a different lens. And I... don't got alotta time... I am not defined... by the mistakes I've made I shouldn't hate myself, I'm tryin... And I... got some mountains to climb... I am not surprised... from all the pain that I've caused.. I should deserve to die... Self...Hate...Crimes... And when the bloody river runs dryer than these swishas Then I got alot to ponder like a wanderin' prisoner. A killer, broke so many hearts Their blood on me still lingers. Their souls always haunt me, just like a quiet whisper. I don't recognize the person staring back within the mirror. Or even this frozen person smiling back within these pictures. I swallow up my pride even though my thoughts are bitter. They won't let me into heaven, wont beg em to reconsider. And I... don't got alotta time... I am not defined... by the mistakes I've made I shouldn't hate myself, I'm tryin... And I... got some mountains to climb... I am not surprised... from all the pain that I've caused.. I should deserve to die... And I... don't got alotta time... I am not defined... by the mistakes I've made I shouldn't hate myself, I'm tryin... And I... got some mountains to climb... I am not surprised... from all the pain that I've caused.. I should deserve to die... Self...Hate...Crimes... ------------------------- Thanks for listening and I hope you enjoyed! Please Like and Comment Let me know what you thought! Music is Life, Live Free.