Floating above the noise… I saw the truth when I was falling. Nobody’s coming to carry you. You either rise… Or you save yourself. I was knee-deep drowning in doubt, no float Heart full of smoke, couldn’t breathe, just choke Faith on thin ice, one crack — that’s broke Smile on the outside, inside no hope Late night pacing, ceiling fan spinning Mind racing, demons grinning Hands in the air but nobody listening Soul felt lost in a world that’s sinning I wore pride like armour plating Masked the pain, kept compensating Fed my fears, kept circulating Self-sabotage was fascinating They said “pray”, I said “maybe” Felt too broken, too damn shaky Mirror talk got real too crazy Had to rebuild the man who made me Cold winds cutting my lungs Past still biting my tongue Tears don’t fall when you’re numb Sometimes silence is louder than drums And I realised — nobody’s coming No cavalry running No angels descending from sky when you’re plummeting You either breathe through the panic Or sink in the static You either stand in the fire Or burn automatic When the world goes quiet… And the weight feels endless… You don’t need a hero… You just need acceptance… Save yourself, nobody’s flying down No halo glowing when you hit the ground Breathe it in, let the pain resound Then rise so high you don’t hear a sound Save yourself, yeah break that spell Turn that prison into a stairway well From rock-bottom depths where the lost ones dwell You don’t need heaven — build it yourself I don’t sleep much, I analyse pain Pull it apart, then rebuild my brain Sat in the dark where the guilt still stains Talking to shadows that still know my name Heartbeat slow but the thoughts move violent Silence loud, it’s never been silent Mind’s a courtroom, judge non-compliant Trauma objecting, truth defiant I replay moments frame by frame Every mistake like it fuels my flame Self-awareness can border insane When you dissect every drop of shame Why do we suffer? Is growth just grief? Is faith just something we tell for relief? Is love just hunger in prettier teeth? Is hope just fear in a lighter belief? I chased perfection until I broke Built my identity out of smoke Clung to pride like it kept me afloat But ego’s a lie that disguises the choke I don’t want saving — I want control Master the chaos inside my soul If heaven exists, it’s self-imposed A disciplined mind when the world explodes I’ve seen the edge of my own despair Stared too long and got comfortable there Darkness ain’t evil — it’s painfully fair It shows you exactly what you can’t bear Obsession? Maybe. But pain’s a teacher I study daily If truth cuts deep then carve me clean I’d rather be scarred than comfortably dreamy You call it cold — I call it awake I’d rather confront what most men escape There’s something divine in the weight we take When we choose to evolve instead of break And yeah — I questioned the sky above But maybe God’s just disciplined love Maybe salvation ain’t stars and doves It’s self-respect when the push gets shove So when I whisper “save yourself” It ain’t rebellion against the help It’s understanding no one else Can sit in your hell and rebuild your self...
